lose my virginity

Well… I lost it. It was so disapointing, yet another example of my mantra “Nothing’s ever as good as you imagine it.” Needless to say, i guess I had high hopes. After that experience i feel that sex is indeed over-rated, or maybe I’m not doing it right. What ever the case, I killed three birds with one stone. With the same guy(who i’m not yet totally disgusted with) i was able to acheieve 3 goals of 43 things: be asked out on a date, date an Italian guy, and well… lose my virginity. The latter of which was the least gratifying goal goal to achieve.

So what have i learned:

1. Bad sex sucks
2. Bad sex is forgivable if its with someone you care about(as oppose to a random person who you might even dislike)
3. If it last past that first tragic session, have a make-up

The second time was longer, the third time was better
But I can still most definately do without it—sex.

You know what baffles me.. all those commercials about presure. No one has ever offered me drugs and no guy has ever come close to having sex with me. My deprivation has led to a serious slight porn fascination. Nonetheless, it hurts. Not sex but lacking the opportunity in hell to do so. I don’t think I’m ugly, but even if i were i see a lot of people who are ugly for sure and have boyfriends and sex. No one i know would believe me, since i’m the most perverted person people know. But it’s the only way to get my kicks. Hopefully in college the opportunity will present itself and the i’ll have the option to think about losing my virginity!