excercise

I walked up 5 flights of stairs today and i couldn’t breath (like an asthma attack couldn’t breath) and I thought my right eye ball was going to pop out of my head. Yes I admit my severe lack of health. Don’t hold it against me and please don’t give me advice…unless of course you are medically concerned about the eyeball popping part – don’t know what was up with that.

Mom and I want to do aqua fit but our schedule is so hectic we can’t sign up for a regular class. We dropped in for one and plan to do so again. We only missed one week so far. But only went once so far as well. Talk about pitiful attempts.

I am definately overweight and I definately use the work fat to describe myself. I am okay with being a big person, with the size of my feet and my bone structure petite is not something that will ever be used to describe me. BUT, I am not healthy in any way shape or form. If I was big an healthy that would be one thing, but big and unhealthy is baaaad. I am pretty sure I have diabetes but can’t even afford to be diagnosed and take the proper meds. After I eat any kind of meal it takes all my effort to not pass out, it’s not even a tired feeling, it’s a lose control fainting feeling. I don’t think that I can fight it on sheer will power much longer. It’s time to start excercising. With that said, if I can be healthier and look down and find that my breasts stick out further than my stomach I will be totally happy….and clotheless since I don’t own a thing that’s too small!