Lately I feel like I’m not even here. I’m just doing things the same every day and getting by. When I get stressed I give up. when I’m around people I fake my laughs to keep the engery flowing. And yet I don’t feel it myself. It’s like I’m stuck behind a window watching life pass me by! I’m young. i am so young and I know it. I should be having a lot more fun. But the most exciting thing I’ve done all month was watch a stupid movie or sleep an extra ten hours.
That’s all I do anymore. sleep, eat, go online or watch a movie. I don’t get out and when I do it’s short-lived because when I get back home I’m back to this same dead feeling.
All I want is to feel alive. And I’m going to do that even if it takes near death to feel it. I can’t wait to escape this. I’m ready for something more.
