be courageous

You should have seen me this morning. I did something courageous that I had been putting off and I was f.&.%.(.$ glowing! I was ecstatic. I haven’t been this happy in a long time and I was a bit hyper. :D I suppose you could say a weight was lifted because I felt buoyant and someone even used the word free.

I had some vicarious joy from my friend for doing something I considered brave and I was proud of her and she was of herself as well.

this goal is about living what I know and trusting & following my heart. It can be very hard to do (courage) but not doing so produces negative consequences. You ever do things even though you know better? I know I have.

I feel that, your heart is always right. Your brain doesn’t always have your best interest in mind. It can be influenced by so many other factors that aren’t always good ones…but your heart isn’t blurred by these because it knows what is right for you even if you aren’t certain about a situation. The heart is sometimes called a soul or your gut/instinct and those terms are both correct. It is your only true guide.

Baby steps…

The other day I needed to tell someone that I was already involved so they did not get the wrong idea and I did end up mentioning the situations.

Today, someone instant messaged me but their way of saying hello wasn’t appreciated by me…I don’t get flattered by comments like that so later today when we talked again it got resolved and he apologize for it possibility offending me.

I feel like I am starting all over again, from the beginning. [Shrug] Maybe, I’m just building up my muscles so I can have the internal strength to do things.

~ [C] Veer Photograph – Disc Secrets & Lies~

This goal is important.

Is what I am doing today going to lead to the future I want? For the last few weeks I have answered that question negatively.

I should just have the courage to listen to the truth and do what is only right. I have to face my fears already and just stand up for myself and other people. I realize that I know better but I haven’t done anything about it.