become a leader

I took on a leadership role at school this term. My first ever leadership role. There are some things I like about it: it gives me control, I like to plan things, i’m maturing, and haha, people are nice to me (I should be careful there). The negatives are.. the ongoing worrying (while i am sort of in control, i have to trust that other people will do what they promise to do, and in that, I have to let go of some control, which makes me worry.. i’m like constantly worried, and it’s always in the back of my mind). Also, I feel like I’m supposed to portray an image, to set a standard for the club. But all my life, i’ve struggled with being myself and ignoring/forgetting how other people are judging me (cuz i’m oversensitive to this). So, I guess, instead of seeing it as changing my superficial image, i should see this as an opportunity to develop my personality and behaviours. Hmm. Lastly… i miss my vegging time!