make peace with the past

It’s taken plenty of soul searching,but I’m almost ready to let it go. I’m just having a hard time being blamed for something I didn’t do. I’m like that with everything though.

I found my photo album, and in it were pictures of the people that were there. I reminiced and felt good about it for once, but I still have little issues. Perhaps if I put the pictures on my wall or something to look at everyday, I’ll feel 100% better. My boyfriend would think I was nuts and he probably wouldn’t get the same good feeling from them.

Up to this point I only have one thing I can’t let go of, but it’s pretty huge none the less. 13 of us at SARS Fest. Two people are missing money. My sister and boyfriend and I get blamed for it. None of us took it. We were kept there untill 3:30AM when it finally appeared. We get threatened the whole time we’re there. I almost crapped myself literally. I hate things like that, and having no control over chemically insane people. Power outage night, my boyfriend’s face gets tenderized, and his parents car gets torched.. they thought it was ours. I cannot let this go and I’m finding it impossible to forgive all these people. There was an apparent witness to who actually took the money, but he didn’t want to look like a rat! I think of them, and whole things replays in my mind. Grrr.. I wish I could just let it go