act in professional-quality theater/films

This has been my motto for so long in my life, and a good one. Yet, I’ve started to lose faith in it recently. I’ve come to this city to direct theater and been asked to perform more often than direct. Yet, I keep trying to direct. And I will continue to do so. However, upon being offered free headshots by a fairly eminent photographer more than two weeks ago, I have yet to call and make the freaking appointment. I have formulated all kinds of excuses of course, but ultimately, I’m procrastinating because I’m scared that if I listen to these signs and then don’t succeed, I will have no where else to turn. Maybe I just hear what I want to hear when I’m listening to the universe…and maybe it doesn’t matter but I should get the freaking headshots, eh? I wish I had a manager to give me a little discipline sometimes. Not that I take to authority well. ;)