Learn to Love myself rather then Hate myself

I hate myself with all my heart, i mean I’ve never been happy with myself but now its like I make everyone around me dissapointed and i can’t stand it, i’m useless,when i was younger i was the best in my class but i was also a big fat looser…now i’ve change, i have friends now but whenever i feel better someone brings me down one way or another…they say I don’t care for my studies or that they liked me best when i was shy,or as my mom would say:”you’re so annoying but you don’t even see it” etc…i don’t know…I just want to scream at the top of my lungs: SHUT THE FUCK UP!!....i’ve tried to hate other people beside me but i can’t do it…i just come back to hating myself even more..I can’t live like this anymore…I have to do something before i go crazy