stop skipping school

I cannot believe this has followed me all the way to college. My chronic skipping is pervading my school life even though I’ve moved halfway across the world. This school has an extremely strict class attendance policy and I’m struggling horribly with it. I try so hard to get to class but the problem is that I used to skip so much that whenever I wake up late I dont have an alarm in my heAd telling me that I HAVE to get to class. instead I just stare T the blinking clock and turn over to get comfortable once again. I may have been able to gotten away with this in my old school but most definitely not here. I have to go see an academic advisor because this has gotten to be such a problem. There is a big chance that I have already failed one class due to skipping and another class my grade has been lowered from absence. My professors can see that I’m trying hard to come to class but I don’t understand why I can’t go. I think this problem may be rooted in my lack of self discipline, my former hedonistic lifestyle (I had not cared about anything), and just plain selfishness. I used to get away with everything because of my reliance on my parents and I realize how wrong and immature that was. It was only till I got here and realized how I couldn’t stop skipping class, as if it was out of my control did I realize how massive this problem was. I need some type of help or a routine to enforce discipline into my life again

Aside from today and a small incident last week, I had been going to school for a month straight now!!

I had to stay home today because I got sick. And this time it wasn’t one of those pansy sicknesses. I had to stay in bed forever,my head was exploding, and I was actually crying non-stop from the pain. So yeah, not an excuse.

Oh my god, my friend is so stupid. I haven’t missed a single school day so far, but I missed one PE class. It was because there were talent show auditions going on and my friend, Morris, was a judge. So i pretty much accompanied him there and sort of helped him weed out the skanky shows. But, my friend just counted that as skipping. Which is not, I was still at freaking school. And who goes to PE anyways? Anyways, she’s changed her mind and now she’s expecting some costa coffee drink. I am not giving her that, I’m not giving up yet. That is the stupidest way to win. Bet Still going, just in intermission.

Okay, now I currently have a bet with my friend. She says, if I don’t skip school or one class for a month, then she’ll buy me a cup of starbucks. But if I don’t, then I have to get her a caramel frappucino. I know it’s a stupid bet, but you can’t blame her for trying to get me to stop skipping. Hopefully I’ll be drinking a latte at the end of the month!!!

I don’t know why I skip school so much! Sometimes it’s becuase I get sick a lot or I’m having a weird panic attack. But I’ve gotta STOP! I go to a private school and they say they’re gonna kick me out of some of my IB classes if I keep this up. I don’t want to, I really don’t. But I feel like, for some reason, i don’t know, but I just sometimes…wont’ go! I’ve got to stop. I have GOT to.