I think I’ve learnt so much about myself in the last few months. That Im not the person I thought I was. And I dont desire the life I thought I wanted…
I didnt go to university and Ive always thought that I missed out on that whole party lifestyle. I thought I wanted to live with loads of people, have mad parties, drink alcohol 24/7, live in a messy house share, have friends over every night and not have to worry.
So I did it.
And now, a few months later, Im screaming inside…
Because thats not me. Thats who I thought I was.
Im only just realising who I really am and what I really want.
And Im finally embracing that and becoming the person that I am and have always been, I guess I’ve just been pushing her away. But I want to be that person now. :)
Just got a new flat and its not messy, its lovely – I’ve finally realised what a clean, organised person I am. Hehe.
I dont invite everyone over for mad parties, I have my real friends over and we cook and watch tv and films. I have a lot more time for me now, for my hobbies – I write alot, I draw, I’m learning to cook…
And Im finally becoming the person Ive always wanted to be.
Im finally becoming me! :) x
