Can I not get him out of my head simply because he represents something that I’m missing in my current relationship? Like security? This feels really stupid – why am I not able to keep myself under control?
Natasha Malinova has written 5 entries about this goal
He’s gone.
I only use his image in my romance fantasies, when I’m not happy with my boyfriend and our relationship, to make myself feel happier.
But I know that he’s not the person in my fantasies; I know that he’s an asshole and I could be using ANYONE’S image to fantasise about a perfect life, I’m just used to using him. I could use George Clooney for all I care.
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He is a horrible person. This has really changed my opinion of him. He used to be lovely, and maybe that’s what made me like him…but now I’m not so sure. If this feeling carries on for more than a week, then I’m marking this as DONE.
...I do feel very disappointed though.
I thought I was going to have a good day, but then all I had to do was see him again…
It’s like an addiction – I really want to stop doing it, and I know it’s bad for me, but it makes me feel so happy. And I KNOW that he knows I have a crush on him, and he knows I know about his having a crush on me, and sometimes he looks up and meets my gaze…and I can feel my body melting.
Please, please make it stop. I know I can make it stop.
I LOVE my boyfriend, I know this for certain. What is wrong with me???
I have a crush on a guy who I see every day in college; I have had this crush for six years now…and it’s not showing any signs of going away. I found out that he also has a crush on me and has had it for almost as long as me.
I also have a boyfriend of four years whom I LOVE, and whom I know I am in love with, whom I want to spend the rest of my life with, and who loves me back. So I am a lucky bitch.
This crush is so tiny and insignificant compared to my love for my boyfriend, but it’s there. And has been there for six years. And I always feel guilty when I’m with my boyfriend because I know that when I see this other guy, my stomach does backflips and I go weak at the knees. There’s SO much chemistry between us. I have never done anything with him though, and never would.
I’m leaving college this year…and hopefully will never see my crush ever again. I really just want to live happily ever after with my boyfriend and stop thinking about this other guy.
