Spend less time fooling around on the net (esp. playing stupid games) & more time working, playing, going on walks, visiting friends, et al

from 1:15 to 2:46 (PM, thank God) wasted on dumb-ass game.

Noticing: very sleepy, couldn’t work-focus so drawn to brainless game.

Would have done better to nap or drink something caffeinated.

Not “less time” but a specific amount… “No more than 45 minutes a day” or whatever. I would probably be horrified.

Okay, got to think about this one. Got to be something I can realistically do and feel good about.

Maybe first step is to log how much time I actually DO waste on this.

Shining light into dark corners always leads to remarkable, if uncomfortable, clarity…

Okay: true confessions.

I am TERRIBLE at addition, subtraction, multiplication… just never got my tables embedded, and was even hauled down to the principal’s office as a kid. It’s not that I’m a dunderhead… my mind is just not numerical (Carl Jung had the same problem.)

BUT! Today I happened on to an addition game. I’m sure it’s for 9 year olds. BUT WORKING IT IS REALLY TEACHING ME TO ADD QUICKLY and painlessly, in a way I could never do before.

I am astonished.

on this one last couple of days.

I COULD rationalize that “I deserve it” having been pedal to metal for previous 4 weeks… but why?

of late.

Stress relief / avoidance as I close in on major project.

tho way better than when I first articulated this.

These days I kind of watch/observe myself. I still do it some, but I ask myself, “Hey, what’s going on? What are you avoiding by doing this?”

I am certainly giving more time to working, playing, walking, friends… than I was. But there is still room for improvement.

There are certain activities I seem to do “instead of” . Instead of working; instead of feeling… play on Internet or eat.

Change is slow. Awareness is a huge piece. I still want to hurry it up, but…

thanks to the “gift” (subtraction noted in previous entry) universe saw fit to deliver!

Because Shockwave, which runs several of the games I was semi-addicted today, has a new upgrade to be installed and I have not been able to successfully install it. So the OPTION of playing the game (and saying to myself “Just one more” all too late into the night) has been taken away from me.

Cold turkey. Intervention by circumstance! Too funny.

And I miss it but I don’t miss it.

I guess this is true of all addictions.

Of course I am still spending too much time onm 43T…

Get off right now and work on Goal # (I think)8… anyway, the lollygagging one.

Snip! I cut the umblical cord to destructive behavior RIGHT NOW!

NOW! Bye-bye, 43T. Dinner time. Pick-up front hall time. Bring in firewood time. Watch a movie while folding laundry time. Plan week time. Etc. FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF BY DOING WHAT’S MOST IMPORTANTRIGHT NOW TIME!