Finish my B.A.

Well, I was registered for 2 classes, but that’s down to 1 now. I won’t be making much progress at this rate, but at least I got back in. My work schedule just didn’t allow for both course work loads, so I had to drop one. It kind of sucks, but I really need to ease back into it. I think I got too excited and kind let go of the fact that I work 40+ hours a week and don’t have time for a class that has 8 text books.
Anyway, that’s my progress update.

before I begin my first day back at university in a year. I can’t believe it took me a year to get back and I’m not feeling at all the way I thought I’d feel going back. I’m super nervous and stressed…I want a cigarette so bad right now. It’s hard cause I feel like the only support I’m getting right now is from my boyfriend and I can’t understand why; no one else seems interested in what I’m doing.
I’m only taking 2 classes, why do I feel like I should be saying goodbye to my social life now? Probably cause most of my friends are already finishing their Masters or PhDs and I’m still working on this BA, almosts 8 years after I first started.
I’m trying to keep in mind that not everyone finishes in 4 years, but it’s been such a long and stressful process, at this point I think I’ve stopped enjoying it and just want for it to be done.
I hope my thoughts on this will change by the time I get to class today. I know I’m a bit of a pessimist, but I really don’t want to go into this with a negative attitude, it’ll just make it harder for me.
I know it’ll be worth it in the end and I’ll only regret it if I don’t do this. This is my life here, I can’t run away from it forever, right?

I just registered for the Spring semester which starts in less than 2 weeks. I haven’t been in a classroom for a year now, so I thought it would be best to start with a small class load, so I’m only attempting 6 credits at this time. I’m pretty excited, but worried about getting back into the routine. We’ll see, I guess. Now I just have to pick up my books, which will no doubt run a small fortune and see if I can’t figure out a transportation plan.