Nor was it about performing for an audience, or hearing people say “oooh she has such a pretty voice!”, or even making a point to the world of how beautifully I may (or may not) sing. I had my time of performance (way back in those lost teenage years), and I cherished it; and yet, to be honest, I no longer long for the spotlight. I do think all of those things are nice, however for me this goal was (is? will be?) about starting the practice, the discipline, etc., more often than just at night when I sing to my children. Although, I do feel that since I feel they deserve only the best (therefore I do not skimp even on singing to them) it has helped keep my voice strong. I have no doubt that my voice would not be where it is now if I had not continued singing to them every night (except when I am extremely ill) since I became a mother at 17.
I would love to sing in a women’s choir again, or even finish up and put out the album that my friend and I worked on back in the winter of 2005/2006, but more than anything I wanted to take the time to really and truly shape and appreciate this gift that is my voice; the only instrument I have ever come close to mastering.
It occurred to me earlier that I can mark this as complete, now that I am giving voice lessons (I am so proud of myself! ::happy dance::). =) To be honest, I had spaced on this being a goal and just did it, and when I saw it, I thought about it and how much I have been doing this already, and here it is, complete. =)
Insh’allah I will be able to continue honing my voice (like anything we master, the moment we think we have done all that can be done, learned all there is to learn, and stop… that is when we no longer are masters at it), treasuring it and never again taking it for granted and allowing it to fall into disuse (not counting bedtimes for my children).
