learn how to relax

...it’s fairly difficult to relax when, for the second time in your life, your office and the surrounding streets are within a police cordon.

Although I am in the basement watching tennis working so I don’t have to see any of this stress-ness going on. Yet.

I wonder if we’ll be able to leave early?

So I have some guidelines for a bit o’ meditation and am going to try it for a bit tonight. I have a feeling that this will take some practice though.

I’ve always said that I “never relax” but I mostly thought I was joking. But I discovered today that actually I really never relax.

It’s not like I have too much trouble sleeping, or that I always feel stressed out or wired, but I never seem to completely switch off, chill out etc. I’m always doing something or thinking about something or worrying about something. It’s not that I feel strung out or wrung out or particularly exhausted by it, but I’m aware that it’s not healthy. And I’ve started to get headaches from where my shoulders are all tense.

I’m not sure exactly how I’m going to go about “being less tense” but it’s going to be something I shall have to learn.