I just need to understand them enough to know what I like and what I want at this moment… so I can seek out people who might be able to give that to me, and ask them for it in a clear, concise way.
Then again, I can’t know what I want, not exactly, until I am willing to put myself out there in all my groping awkwardness and take some random steps in the right direction. That’s what I have been working on, in little baby steps.
And of course what I want will change over time, just to keep things interesting.
