But since I’m not working on it right now, it’s gotta go! Must make more room on my list!
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Somehow I have settled into a better groove with this. I am still getting lots done and being productive, but the pace feels manageable.
Last night I even had a few extra hours to spend at my sweetie’s house doing his laundry and dishes! (Now don’t start to grumble at that, ladies… I am only beginning to do my share after all the times he has done this for me!)
Now I think I’m ready to give my “meditate daily” goal another go. A daily practice totally transforms my sense of time.
... but that’s not really what I meant with this goal. When I wrote it I was feeling totally overwhelmed by all my projects and social comittments and personal/work responsibilities.
Now I am being much more productive. My sweetie gave me a kick start by cleaning my apartment for me. Then I made a massive to-do list and started ticking off things. It feels good to tick off things and get stuff done. It makes me feel capable, responsible, on top of things. If I didn’t buy toilet paper and get my oil changed and pay my bills, I’d be in trouble.
But I know there’s more to life than feeling like every moment is another project ticked off my list! I think the next step of this project will involve some journaling about the ways I spend my time and the ways I want to spend it.
Every weekend there are 5 things I just can’t miss. But I have to miss some of them. And somewhere in there I have to relax a little too. I have recently reduced my volunteer commitments, but I don’t feel like my life has slowed down one bit. I don’t feel like I have more of that elusive down time. I have been spending more time with friends—and that’s good. But I don’t want to spend my days rushing around feeling harried any more.
I guess I’m a “type A” personality. Slowing down is not easy for me. Let me rephrase that: it hasn’t been easy for me in the past.
My partner and I just had a slightly tense discussion about plans for this weekend: we each have things we really want the other to do with us, and we are both feeling overwhelmed and overcommitted.
Stop the world, I want to get off!