meditate regularly

I did a chakra meditation tonight and it was interesting. I don’t know that I fully believe there are these specific “energy centers” of the body, but I did the meditation anyway which walked me through all the main chakras.

What I found truly interesting was when I reached my heart chakra. It felt heavy somehow. And not necessary in a bad or sad way, just heavy. Like a box full of all your old favorite books. It’s heavy and a pain to haul around, but you don’t mind. I don’t know. That’s what my heart chakra felt like for some reason.

The thought intrigued me, so I felt the need to document it here. :P

Ok, done for now!

Last night I found this site.

http://www.meditationoasis.com/

I had a successful experience with the ‘Letting Go’ podcast. I’d recommend this site to anyone who feels they need a little guidance in their meditating.

Also, I’ve had a splitting headache these past few days, so I randomly typed in “meditation symbols” into Google last night also. What came up with something called Reiki. It has to do with Chakra, you draw these symbols on different energy centers of your body, then meditate and focus your engery on those spots and it’s suppose to heal pains that you have.

I tried drawing the balance symbol on my Third Eye Chakra. The balanca symbol gets rid of pain and unblocks your body so energy will flow better. This morning I woke up and the headache was COMPLETELY gone. I was amazed!

Of course, I realize a lot of it has to do with your mindset. If you think a symbol is going to help, you’ll probably notice more of a difference than if you were highly skeptical about it working. But whatever, I don’t have a headache anymore! :)

I think I might look more into this Reiki stuff…

I sort slipped away from mediation again when I came back to school. Obviously. :P. But I’m starting to get back into it now.

SOOOO much has happened in my life since I last wrote in here. Most of it stressful. But I’m learning how to look at it in a constructive, positive light. I’m understanding how to appreciate and care for things without being dependent or too strongly attached. I’m not numb or dislocated from everything, I just consider everything – all my family, friends, etc. – as enhancements to my life. Not things I require to live. Simply things I would rather have in my life than not.

But anyway, meditation is helping me with that. It clears my mind a bit, helps me be comfortable and ok with myself. It’s nice to take a break from irritation and worried and bullshit and just relax again.

Well, I tried to meditate last night, but I was so uncomfortable as usual. I don’t know what it is, but my bed just bothers me for some reason. It’s odd, before college I loved having a huge bed to sprawl out on, but ever since I slept in my single bed in my dorm, I kind of prefer that. I need pillows and stuff around me in order to sleep in my bed at home. And even that doesn’t help sometimes. Ugh.

Anyways, there was a yoga program on TV earlier today, so I thought I’d go for it. And it was sort of helpful. A lot of the poses and stuff were way too advanced for me, but I did my best. It helped to have done yoga before, so I sort of new my limits and knew how to stretch certain things.

I still feel a little exhausted and tired, but I’d like to think yoga gave me a little more energy. I’m thinking maybe if I can find some good music or something to listen to as I’m meditating, it’ll help. The music in the background of the show was pretty soothing.

Here’s to hoping this is the beginning of my second attempt at meditating regularly!

I’ve definitely slipped away from meditating and it shows. I haven’t been sleeping well and I can’t concentrate on things sometimes. I hate it. I’m always talking myself out of meditating and I don’t know why.

I’m really gonna make an effort to get back where I use to be on this goal.

For the past couple nights I was really restless. I actually almost took some sleeping pills because I was never comfortable and always tired the next day.

But I really tried to meditate last night to try to ease my mind a little bit. And it helped, but I’ve noticed that some of my muscles, particularly in my face area, are a lot harder to relax.

I guess my mind is just whirling with making sure I’m ready for college in the next month and everything going on with the guy I’m currently seeing…just wish it was easier to turn off my mind and sleep.

Lately I just haven’t been in the mood to meditate. It’s really annoyed because I know that the times when you don’t want to meditate are the times when you most need to meditate.

So I went ahead and did it for the first time in a while tonight.

I think it went well. I was able to let go of a lot of tension that I’ve been feeling in my muscles and mind lately. Plus, there’s this huge storm going through my city right now and that really helped me focus. I absolutely LOVE storms.

I think I my invest in one of those noise-maker things that makes rain sounds and such…might be pretty useful.

Well, my dad’s pretty sure the power is gonna go out soon, so I’ll be ending this now.

I’m just very glad I was able to fit some time into my life to do this again.

I haven’t really been meditating like I use to, but I don’t think I’m slipping away from it either. It’s unexpectedly brought me closer to something more spiritual that I’m now really aware of. I’m able to look at problems more easily. I finally had the courage to let go of the guy I’ve been seeing without feeling guilt or regret about it.

I just find myself being more randomly happy. I like it.

I tried to meditate for the first time today in a while.

I went outside again and, just like last time, things made it very distracting. There was a cricket that wouldn’t shut up (it’s a sunny afternoon! why is there even a cricket awake out there?!) and there were a lot of ants/spiders that randomly decided to crawl on me.

So I decided to do a different meditative-like thing, similar to what I did last time outside. I kept my eyes open, put my hands on the ground, and then said a little prayer.

Yeah, it sounds weird. But as I was doing it, I started thinking…maybe this is what I should keep doing. I love God, but routinely going to church isn’t for me.

Who knows…maybe I’ve found my spiritual path. :)

I understand why people drift away from meditation so easily. I sometimes feel like I’m getting worse at it the more I try.

But I think that’s just a warped way of thinking about it. I’d like to think that continually emptying my mind, even for a few moments, does some good somehow.