Overcome my eating disorder.

I suppose to try to overcome this i should try to write why i think i have this illness.
Since i was 10 i have been bullied! i was a bit tubby at school (not fat) and i used to get bullied! personally looking back on it now i think they bullied me because i was talented, could sing and had gorgeous blonde hair.
However the bullying bought my confidence to 0, and when i was 13 i started loosing weight, i actually lost over a stone in weight!
Ever since i have been obsessed with my weight, and food i eat! i was a very low weight last Christmas but overcome my disorder for a while and put on 1/2 a stone.
A month ago i have started becoming obsessed with loosing weight again i have not managed to loose any yet! but its the whole illness that is getting to me.
It annoys me when people say EDs are attention seeking! because mine certainly is not! and you dont know what its like until you are living with one.