Having him out of my life finally and not ever wanting him back in it! Yay! I’m finally free! I finally moved on!
FreeFall2Life has written 5 entries about this goal
I gave it one last try, gave it “my all” and it blew up in my face. Thankfully, quickly. Now it’s done. No going back. The man is not a man, but a 44 year old, scared boy full of lies and deceit. He is just not a good person. Period. He is defaming my name all over my hometown and acting like a scorned child. I’m being the bigger person now. I have blocked all contact with him, yet I virtually still check on him…oooh I know it’s wrong, oooh I know I should stop. But the child in me wants to see him hurt as much as he hurt me. Yeah, yeah, I’ll start healing and growing in a few months but right now I just wanna be bitter. Is that so wrong?
He lied to me for 2 years, I was brutally honest. Now all I do is lie to him. He claims he changed, so did I…for the worse.
Our timing must be off.
Spent all night on skype together, feel close to him again…listened to old 80’s pop hits like Timmy T’s “One More Try” this morning….Really? Can somebody please slap me in the face?
He brings nothing but pain and emotional anxiety into my life. I even traveled 1700 miles to get away from him and he still constantly calls and I consistently take his calls…like an idiot. What is wrong with me? I’ve always been able to let men go if they weren’t good for me. Not this one, this one I can’t seem to let go…why??? I care what he does daily, who he talks to, I get jealous, envious of the stupidest things. We never had a healthy relationship and I just want him out of my brain. He has been living in in for way too long!