lose 130 pounds

Geez, I even had a lapband done this summer, & lost some weight, but I’m screwing that up bec. I’m just a binge-type person who rebels against anything that smacks of obligation & I’m just terrified that if I look good & men show interest, I’ll be weak & get myself into another stupid relationship/marriage. Nonononononononono

Dr. Phil says if you want to be different you have to do different. I don’t know if I can. My reasons for hanging onto the weight must be very strong. But it’s showing up in my health now, & I really hate the way I look. I want to feel good but not attract any male attention.