stop swearing

5:00, woken earlier by cats. Decided instead of getting back to sleep I would try to get some early morning work done, when I got to my computer, found another cat sitting in my chair.

Went to great effort to slowly move the chair over without making enough sound to wake up Aimée. Only AFTER I’d finished moving the chair over and sat down in a much less comfortable one did Fran jump off the chair, usually a sign that she’s about to start squeaking, which often DOES wake Aimée up.

Swore under my breath before I realized it.

I think I’m finding it easier to catch myself beforehand, though I have yet to have a major challenge to test that. The few minor ones (tripping in the middle of the night over our Ottoman, driving, forgetting to do things) have been manageable. I think I’m also getting a bit better at catching myself when I get into a swearing mood, and altering the mood itself. It’s not that I don’t get angry or frustrated, just that I get OUT of feeling that way a little quicker.

Yesterday went well. One jeebus, nothing else to my recollection. Twice managed to catch myself moving into swearing mode, managed to notice and curtail beforehand each time, which feels great.

So far, so good, give or take 2 mild jeebus-related stumblings yesterday. So far, I think driving is my biggest danger zone.

It’s interesting differentiating two areas to work on:

- Actually swearing
- Getting in to the mode of speaking angrily about things.

I want to work on both, but will consider this challenge to be the former.

So far so good: two days of tootling around LA with the attendent stresses, and no swearing, except a bit in my mind.

I think the batch of latest dreams has been helpful in energizing me to get back on track in improving myself.

I think the next big challenge will be once I’m back in my normal environment, particularly on Lonsword nights, as it’s easy to swear in the heat of the moment after a good finger mashing.

Alright: I’m starting this one again. The goal is to go 40 days without swearing. I’m feeling pretty inspired about this one this time, so I think it will go better. We’ll see.

Yup… I think if anything maybe I’ve been swearing MORE now that I’m trying to stop again. It’s been a nice relaxing weekend, so hopefully I can re-set, and start in with tomorrow as a new “Day 1” for 40 days without.

So: As part the most recent talking circle, I set an intention for this week. Part of it involves no swearing. I’ve already caught myself twice today, but at least I’m catching it. So Day 1: Not so good. Hopefully the rest of the week can be swearing-free.

Language affects how people perceive us, how we perceive ourselves, and how we think. I want to get rid of the patterns in all of the above that relate to my swearing.

It’s not that I have sailortongue, but I feel I’ll be more inspired and more inspiring if I can get rid of swearing as a habit.

Milestone:
40 days without swearing.