Get a job

Well, the sky is gray and it’s bleak and cold and rainy but what does that have to do with my job search? Nothing. I’m tired of sending out resumes and waiting for weeks for responses – Im thinking of going into retail for now because I cant stand having all this time on my hands and being so ISOLATED!!! Ugh! I can’t stand being alone all the time. I want to be out there with people and I’m too worried about money and not working to “socialize” in any other way – I want to be out there with people – so that’s my decision now – the thing is there’s SO many places, where to begin? It’s a bit overwhelming so I’m procrastinating again…

Today I sent out 3 resumes – I feel good about that…

I don’t know what the problem is but my energy is so low today and I just do NOT want to look for a job or write letters or anything – I feel bleak sorry all.

Well Im starting over trying to be positive and go at this full force – we’ll see what happens…

So I made it through 2 interviews this week and now waiting for the answers – Im trying to stay positive but I just got so flustered because I wanted an answer right away – I was thinking well “What do you have to think about? You’re still looking for someone who is better than me?” It’s a bit insulting… the job I would prefer said he’s deciding in 10 days, the other guy said he’ll decide by Monday – I guess I’ll just wait to see what happens I could get neither, both or one or the other – Things just happen in an odd way – Im not in control is the point – I do my best, but occasionally unfortunately put my foot in my mouth and say the wrong thing and then Im like “Oh God, why did I just say that?” Oh well… At least I had a chance at least I got to dress up…

Okay people it’s either all or nothing right? So now Ive got two interviews lined up -one on Thursday, one on Friday – I think Im ready but boy am I nervous – out of the blue really quite literally it seems things are just coming my way – He works in mysterious ways He does…

Well last night I heard from prospective employer and emailed him back and waiting for a phone call – so I was really surprised – sometimes it just shocks me when something I want to happen finally happens!

The ultimate ponderance – do I have to work on weekends looking for work – if I can do it I will – I couldnt send anything out yesterday – so I thought I’d try to make up for it today

Well yesterday I managed to write 4 cover letters and sent out 3 – one of them I couldnt send out – I think the job expired – it was a start but I am frustrated today and having trouble continuing to write the letters and send out – I don’t know why I make it so hard on myself – or why I freeze up about it and procrastinate – I know it’s a numbers game and if I dont send the applications/resumes out I have NO chance of anyone even knowing Im out here! I wanted to send out like 10 a day – I’m lucky if I send out a couple – what’s up with that? What’s my problem?

I have found a few job leads but am having trouble finding leads – I literally don’t know where to begin – I had this problem last time I was job searching – occasionally I’d find a bunch then nothing – it’s frustrating me – but even the ones I have I’m having difficulty writing cover letters for – It’s something I have to get into the groove of doing again – and that hasnt happened – what do you say about firms/companies especially when they are “blind” ads – what do you say about why you want to work for them when you dont even know who they are? Fun fun fun…