lose 10 kg

I want to be happy with myself, and not be unhappy if I weigh a few more extra pounds.

I’ve decided that I dont really want to lose 10kg,I just want lose lose overal body wieght, and if that totals up to 10kg, or less, or more, that’ll be oké.

I won’t mind, because i’ll look healthy, and not in dire need of food.

I ‘want to lose weight, but I’m scared, very scared.
I’m scared of what ppl wil think, i’m scared of the hard work i’m going to have to do, and i’m scared,
that once i’m at my normal weight,
that I won’t know how to stop, and i’ll end up being gymarexic
(the gym version of anorexic, you get addicted to excersizing, and losing weight, and you can’t stop)
and that i’ll turn out all spiny-skin-and-bones.

I’m TERRIFIED.

Although i’m pretty level-headed, and all that good stuff, you never know…
I mean, all the other people that are addicted to SOMETHING never saw it comeing, did they?
And they were all level-headed, right?

Exactly.

I don’t want to get that all-consuming kick, even though I do, I get a rush after excersizing,
I don’t feel tired, I feel energetic, ready-to-go it’s scary, like, really scary!!!

But I want to lose weight, I really do, and i’m only 13!!

HELLO?!

I’m 1.63 meters, 60 kg, my BMI is 22-23, but I want it down to 20, or weigh 55 kg, I feel weird, I don’t know, tell me what you think about this….

I really need help, I think.