and assessing whats left over, is what I have been doing to get to the root of this feeling.
I’ve spent alot of time evaluating my life and actions, soul searching, taking responsibility for certain undesirable outcomes, and i realize something:
I have LEGITIMATE BEEF.
I dont intentionally hurt people. Hurting people is never the goal. But this is what has been done to me. There are some people in life who actually find JOY in rousing the anger/supressing the joy of others. Who has time for that crap?
Its anger directed with the specific intention to maim or hurt that is most painful and unforgivable to me. In my life, this kind of aggression has often come from enemies wearing the mask of friend.
OK so now what? How can I get rid off it? What do I do with this anger energy before it ends up making me sick?
