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I’ve already emailed some friends to go to the movies or get together and scrapbook tonight. Both are activities that I do without alcohol involved. If I drink before a movie, I know I’ll fall asleep shortly into the movie. If I scrapbook, I need my creative brain and alcohol limits that part of me. So, I hope to do one or the other so I’m not tempted to pick up that bottle of wine. Friday’s are hard. I’m always looking to “decompress” on the weekends, thinking it will allow my body and thoughts to rest up for the coming week ahead. Actually, it’s the opposite. I ruins me for the week ahead. I don’t have as much energy or brain power or patience to get through whatever lies ahead. I have to keep reminding myself of that. Good luck to us all tonight and tomorrow night. Stay Sober together! We’re not alone…

Well, as you all know, from my previous posts, that I’ve been strugling with this goal lately.
Recently when I do pour that glass of wine during the week with no celebration or reason to drink, I’ve been getting kind of embarassed. I don’t know where that came from, but, it’s kind of a good thing. My thoughts go somewhere like this, “why did you just pour that glass of wine”? “where is it going to take you on this normal night of the week”? “if you drink it, you’ll feel like shit in the morning”? “what person, that’s thinking clearly, makes a decision to do this to themselves”? Stuff like that. It’s a new feeling for me. I hope it continues and allows me to feel uncomfortable enough about drinking that I won’t want it, more than I do.
Stay strong today people. I didn’t drink the last couple of nights and I feel incredible strong and healthy today. I’ve gotten more done this morning around the house than I’ve gotten done in the last month combined.
Stay Sober with ME…

A couple very special people encouraged me to stay with my goal. It touched me. I will stay and I will work hard today to not drink. I want to be healthy and feel good. This is what I will work towards today. I feel very motivated today and even went on the treadmill. I have high blood pressure and would just LOVE to get off my meds and lower my BP naturally.
Thank you both again for your encouragement.

Well, I guess I have to start over. <3Zoe really makes me feel, two things, like, I'm not doing very well at this goal AND I can do this. Both feelings at the same time. I am not feeling successful at this time. I have to rethink this goal. I really do. Maybe it's not the one for me. I'll let you all know what I decide. Best of luck to you all. I'm routing for you all. Take Care.

We live in an era that we never know what is going to be around the corner. We live in an era that we are scared for our futures. We live in an era where staying “nunb” is so much easier than being sober, because reality is SO hard.
I want to be sober and feel the pain but it’s just SO hard. I’m so scared as to our financiall futures. The Feds are trying, but if they fail in what they are trying to bail out, what happens then? I want to think that we are doomed, but also want to think that we will be ok, because only the later will keep me sober.
What do you all think?
Deb

Well, another beautiful day ahead. I feel great today. I’m proud of myself for doing so well lately. Even my husband mentioned that he noticed that I wasn’t doing my nightly drinnking at home. That made me feel good because I always felt guilty about it. It was a little self esteem boost. Here’s to staying sober TODAY!

I’m a little freaked out from my day yesterday. I have been so forgetful (more than ever) and spaced out. Could this be withdrawl? I know that’s a bit far fetched but if it isn’t, I’m worried. I was spacy all morning then had to pick my child up from school for a doctor’s appointment. I went to the wrong school! The school she was in last year. Not only did I go in but I signed her out and asked the secretary to call her out of class. I then realized where I was and I must have been 10 shades of red. My memory is just HORRIBLE for the past few days. I wake up in the morning and feel physically great. But, you know that foggy feeling of, what happened last night? Well, I’ve been having that as if I’ve been drinking. But, I haven’t. Can anyone shed some light on this for me so I don’t run to the doctor’s thinking I have a brain tumor or something. Has anyone experienced anything like this when quitting???????????
Also, I’m heading out with our “partying” friends tonight. Wish me luck.

I’m not sure exactly what day I’m on. Somewhere in the first week. I really don’t care much right now because my euphoria has me content at this moment. I can’t imagine when the toxins are totally out of my body how good I’ll actually feel. It will be amazing and I look forward to the future. Each day I find myself doing one more thing to better myself. Whether it’s not smoke or not drink soda or just do some breathing, it’s amazing how good I feel. Today I will NOT drink OR smoke. Good luck everyone, stay strong.

Well, mad it though a Friday night. I don’t remember the last Friday night in my life that I wasn’t buzzed. Although, I really never remembered much of anything, any day of the week. Yesterday, while driving, I felt kind of “clear”. I guess I could say “clear-headed”. It was strange, and I liked it. I felt in control. I was cranky and bitchy last night around dinner time. So, “something” sent a phone call my way and it was a couple girlfriends asking me to go to a movie with them. Imagine that? A phone call asking me, on my first Friday night sober, to go out somewhere where there is no alcohol involved. It was my lucky day. I got a headache 1/2 way through the movie and when it was over, instead of my suggesting “hey, let’s go out for a drink and catch up”, I took two advil and headed home to watch the hurricane news in bed. Woke up around 7:00 AM without an alarm (if you knew me, you’d know how strange that is). I’m kind of proud of myself today (but I’m still kind of edgy). I’m naming today “Stay Sober Saturday”! Won’t you all join me ;)

Well, I stayed sober last night. I was busy with the kids, driving them around for their activities. Normally, while running around, I’d be thinking of that glass of wine when I got home. When that crossed my mind last night I just wiped it out of my mind with, “you don’t drink anymore, so you don’t need to think about that glass of wine.” The thought went away and didn’t haunt me as it always did until I poured it, and took my first swig. It felt kind of liberating. It also gave me one small moment of contentment which I haven’t felt in years. Weird, but good…
My M.O. would usually be that I wouldn’t drink as much the night after polishing off a bottle and a half (the night before). Well, that would be tonight. Wish me luck. Give me strength. I can do this!
Good luck to everyone on this site tonight. The F%^#$@ Friday night cravings won’t break us TODAY.