go to bed and go to sleep, instead of lying in bed for hours staring at the ceiling because my brain won’t stop

i tried going to sleep like 3 hours ago and all i thought abt while looking at the ceiling was bleach lol … and the amount of cleaning i have do at work tomorrow morning well later today rather you know hygience n what not in school seeing there is some viral thingy going around and it effects little children .. anyways … i decided to get up and look at the 43 things again ..and chat .. whoopie ..any long night yesterday i slept at 5 and i had to be at work at 830am .. i think i need to go to insomniac anonymous ..

0315 am .... i stared at the ceiling .. my brain keep working .. blah blah blah .. i tried to meditate worked for a while n poof im up again blah blah blah .. lying in bed for hours is fun but not when its time for you to sleep.. bleah! & this time its not even the clowns .. raised eyebrow

grrrrr… this is going to be a tough goal. Right now all i want to do it sleep .. Sleep seems to be the best thing right now and i am not talking about sleep where your mind is still functioning – i want a real deep sleep one where your subconscious is sleeping too.. Sleep is a great escape from lifes little problems and what not and someone told me this … ’ Sometimes sleeping is the only way we can escape this that scares us ’...... if only i could sleep …