Have my first kiss

I’m not rushing into this one. I am really rushing into getting a b/f. But no one seems to wanna go out with me. I guess that’s a good thing because I’m kinda too young to have one anyways.

I read this article on how to be the best kisser ever.. Hehe. The introduction was weird. The author was telling you what it was like. And I thought.. it’s not that amazing or wonderful, is it? I just don’t understand. I guess I won’t understand ever until I actually do it. I dunno.

All I need is someone to kiss….I DUNNO! I mean, I was this close to having my first kiss and I blew it. What a loser I am….At least I know what I want…When I meet him I will know, “This is it… I will finally have my first kiss!” Whatever. I am just not in the mood to talk about this. I mean, I had a boyfriend but he’s a jerk now and I BROKE UP WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WAS SUCH A LOSER AND HE STILL IS. I just hate being near him…He’s on my bus, he’s in my class, he’s only a mile away from my house. But who gives a $#!T about him anyway? He was the one I almost kissed, too. I don’t…never mind. I am over him. I am allowed to break-up with him…I am allowed to have who I want as a boyfriend. He’s lucky because he’s the first boyfriend I had for almost a month, TWO MONTHS. Whatever.