run 3x a week

Last week I didn’t run, definitely not more than once, I don’t quite remember. It was SO awful last week, torrential rain. Plus, for some reason, I was utterly exhausted all week. This week I haven’t ran yet, and probably won’t, as we are moving house and I want to focus on that. I am feeling though – I feel fat and sluggish!

With the move I’ll have to find a new run to do! We are just the other side of the park I used to run at, but I fancy a change, am getting better at running, am closer to the river and the park is a bit further away too, so time for a change! =)

Last week I did run 3x a week! I feel so much better for it, so energetic and more optimistic! =)
Yesterday, Tuesday, I took Chris with me. He is very fit and normally when we run together her springs up really high with each step to try and slow him down so he can stay next to me instead of going off too fast, but he was very good at not doing that yesterday (it really annoys and de-motivates me, even though he is trying to be nice). Anyway, I was saying to him as we walked home, I still felt like my body could have gone faster, my heart wasn’t going crazy, my legs felt fine except for a slight pain in one calf, I had a couple of stitches but they went as I kept running….. I was fine! I couldn’t take deep breaths but I was in a good breathing rhythm. It was just my MIND that stopped me running!!!!! This is the main hurdle I need to get over.

So I didn’t run on Thursday because it was very very rainy (ahh, British summer!), but I had the morning off work yesterday so I went then. I managed 2 laps of the park, YAY!, but had to stop halfway though as I had the worst stitch of my life. Walking to work this morning it still hurt! So I may bump today’s run over to tomorrow to give the stitch more of a chance to go. I did lots of stretching too and I felt like I could have gone for another lap if it wasn’t for the sitch. It really was agony! My mindset was stronger and more determined this time and my legs and body in general did feel stronger too.

I am already feeling the benefits, even after just the first run! Way more awake for the whole day, and generally have a happier outlook it seems! =) Encouraging. Plus I love the feeling of being tired after exercise, rather than tired through slobbing about. It’s a much more satisfying and cosy sort of sleepiness. =)

Ok! I ran yesterday! Just once around the park, 15 mins, but at least I went! It was good conditions too, warm but drizzling with rain! My body felt like I could do more but my mind gave up. Annoying! I’m thinking once round is better than doing nothing, at least. And it will get easier as I continue to go.

I am going to run every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday WITHOUT FAIL, even if it is too hot/too cold/the middle of the day when loads of people will see me. Pretty excited, loving it!

Finding it SO difficult to motivate myself to go running! Haven’t been for months. I think it’s cos there was a period where it really was too hot to do anything, and then I never really got back into it since then.
I have the idea in my head that if I go for one run, I need to go for four throughout the week as the goal states, and 4 seems like LOADS! So at this stage I am knocking one off – 3 runs a week seems WAY more manageable! So I will try and run 3x per week and then eventually increase it back up to 4x. Hm. Watch this space!

I am so ashamed of myself. I need to focus, I need to develop some commitment and dedication. I have never stuck to anything in my life, I don’t think. I lose motivation and momentum so easily. It’s PATHETIC!!! =( I am so annoyed at myself, constantly! I’m scared the same will happen with my degree, or songwriting, or even when I’m raising a family! I have no dedication. I must work on it. It’s ridiculous. I am so immature.

I ran I ran I ran! It was amazing. I did the same route as last time, and it felt so much easier than it did on day 1! I felt much more positive as I was running, too. I think I went a little faster than last time, and it was good, very good! =D

I didn’t run this morning, AGAIN. I so almost did, I got up, stretched, WAS going to go, I promise, but then Chris wanted a cuddle so I got back into bed just for a second…........ And fell back asleep. I’m going out tonight straight from work and so can’t run this evening either! IDIOT! This week has been AWFUL, running-wise.

I didn’t go!!! It was the perfect temperature, dy not rainy, still light, I wanted to go!!! BUT I was walking home and had to limp half the way because the arch of my foot was killing me! So annoyed. I feel like I am making excuses for myself but it’s really excruciating when it gets bad so I didn’t want to make it any worse :(

I am so frustrated with myself. I cannot believe I didn’t go running AGAIN this morning! It’s rainy and I got to bed late, but this is no excuse! I keep eating chocolate and my trousers have become so much more snug since I came back from Australia. SIGH.

I WILL go tonight after Jazz practice. Definitely.