lose weight

Okay so as of 7 minutes ago i havent smoked
weed for a week.
And i have been busy with plans of moving to San diego,
so i haven’t have time to move out.
But just in the week i haven’t smoked weed,
I have lost five punds!
I’m so happy.

Well, yeah i’m happy but now I’m just back down to the weight
i was at when i decided i wanted to lose weight.

But I’m getting there.

So today was the super bowl. I did really good until
i got drunk and came home and pigged out on some biscuits and gravy
(Yuummmmmm :D)
But then when i tried to go to bed, my stomach hurt….SUPER bad.

So i had to throw up.

You know…when your stomach hurts and you really don’t
want to throw up but you know thats the only way your
stomach will feel better?

So basically all the biscuits and gravy, liqor, beer, and SUPER BOWL snacks came up. Which in a non-anorexic way I’m happy cause it didn’t completly undo my whole week.

MORE SELF CONTROL NEXT TIME HAYLEY!!! haha.

I hope everyone stayed strong for super bowl sunday…i didnt.
And niether did my stomach :(

GOOOOOOOOOOO STEEELERRRRSSSSS!

Well so far I’m doing way better on
my diet then I expected.

Yesterday for lunch i had a Chicken wrap.
Steamed chicken on a bed of raw spinniach, and two tbls of
Fat free ranch.

Then for dinner i had a salad.
Onions, beel pepper, cucumber, raw spiniach, lettuce, a pinch of cheese, tomatoe, and fat free ranch.

I woke up late and didn’t get to it but oh well.

Monday at a gas station while we were getting liquore,
some guy told me
“Good luck on your liposuction.”
I really don’t know how i feel about it.
I wasn’t so much insulted because he was fat too,
but it was emberassing.

Whatever though. All the more motivation.

So today, for breakfast i had
a breakfast taco. WITHOUT the salsa. Uhg.

1 egg, calories 70, calories from fat 40
1 corn tortilla, calories 110, calories from fat 15
1 pinch or cheese, calories 30, calories from fat 20

Man.
I royaly screwed up my diner last night.
I had a baked potatoe and instead of italion dressing i used ranch.

See,
Its super hard for me.
Because its not that I want to eat a lot, its that
I really enjoy flovor.
Haha.

I do.

But yeah,
still having trouble finding time to work out.
I need to work on that.
Well today is a new day and starting over.

I have been busy this morning so i didnt get to breakfast,
but im about to have lunch.

Chicken cooked in foil.

-Chicken, calories 120, calories from fat, 30
-Salada, calories, (negative calories)
-2 tbls italion dressing, calories 80, calories from fat, 70

Total calories, 200
Total calories from fat, 100

Advice:
-Focus on your positives. Its easier then it sounds but sometimes you may feel that your bad outways your good.
Its all a matter of out look.
I.E. I am very pretty. I love my eyes, and the size of my boobs. (Im actually afraid that my boobs will get small, but no change yet)(peww)(haha)
So try your hardest!

Man, i just smoked. But im snacking on grapes
and apples. Not cheetos and dip. Haha.

Well the breakfast taco
i made this morning (only 310 calories inc. orange juice)
I REALLY didn’t care for it.
I wouldn’t recommend it :S
haha.

Remember,
don’t eat till your full! Eat till your comfortable.

I WILL NOT SMOKE WEED.
I WILL NOT SMOKE WEED.
I WILL NOT SMOKE WEED.

The munchies i get screw up my whole diet.
Its so hard though.

Well being vegeterian suprisingly put a stop to a lot
of unhealthy foods i have endulged in, in the past so I’m happy about that.

Eating healthy is easier for me then finding time to work out.

So from now on if its a reasonable walking distance
and the weather is tolerable i shall walk to
my future destinations.

I would have no problem working out at home
but my brother has moved back in
and he makes fun of my weight quite often.

I know he would say something rude if he saw me working out.
He’s 22 so i don’t see why he doesn’t
have the maturity or support older brothers should have for their sisters. But thats a-whole-nother bag of problems. Haha.

Sometimes i get discouraged because i have tried dieting
and working out and failed to keep doing
so. So im really gonna try my hardest to stick with this.
Anywho, plans for tomorrow:

Breakfast:
Quick Breakfast Taco.
- 1 egg, 70 calories
- 2 tbls Salsa, 10 calories
- Pinch of cheese, 55 calories
- 1 tortilla, 110 calories
- 8 ounces of orange juice, 90 calories

Total Calories: 335
Total Calories from Fat: 135

Lunch: Chicken Sandwich
- Chicken (cooked with a cilantro, butter mix), 160 calories
- 2 pieces whole grain bread, 150 calories
- Vegetables (lettuce, tomatoe, etc), Negative Calories
- Bottles Water
Total Calories: 310
Total Calories from Fat: 90

Dinner: Mini-Chickens (My Dad wanted to make them)
- Mini-Chicken, 280 calories
- Salad (lettuce, tomatoe, onion, cucumber, etc) w/ 2tbs Italian dressing, 80 calories
- 8 ounes 2% fat milk, 140 calories

Total Calories: 500
Total Calories from Fat: 285

Grand Total Calories: 1145

Sounds like a plan.

(18 IN NINE MONTHS!!)

Okay i write in this thing
few and far between.

Eating healthy isnt easy since im only
17 and my dad and brother do all the shopping.
Its not the food you want to eat if your trying to lose weight.
(i.e. oreos, potatoe chips, candy bars.)

Dont get me wrong,
they do get things for meals but they are men,
Its all about the taste not how its gonna effect your heart or weight.

But i do eat healthy when i get the chances.
Sometimes ill make a list and send it with them
or ill try to catch them before they sneak off.

Well Im 17.
I am 5’7’’ and at least 185lbs. OBESE.
But not in a disgusting manner.
I have a pretty face
(im not self absorbed but its just one of the things im positive on when it comes to myself.)
And i dont look anywhere near my weight but the
fact is i AM 185lbs.
I smoke weed and that doesnt help.
Im quiting that. And i have already been off for 11 days.
And i dont NEED it so im not going crazy.
All it did was make me laugh and eat.

As much as i would love to blame the
Pot for my weight i cant.
I have always been a little bigger then all the others.
(height)

To wrap it up i need to do more working out.
At least LEAST three times a week, an hour a day.

But i get so bored doing it.
So now i have my bestfriend Adriana do it with me.
Shes awsome (LOVE YOU BOO).

Onward to start on these new goals.

Oh, www.myspace.com/hayleydizzledop
thats what my body looks like. Go to the party pictures.
Its not horrid, but still needs a lot of work.

SUPPORT. :D

Working out yesterday didnt work out.
GODDAMMIT.
We went to get the leather corset for my halloween
costume and couldnt find one ANYWHERE!
Sucks.
But i found this super cute one that is silky deep purple.
So i think ill just be a stripper or prosistute or something along the lines.
But so i want to lose at least a little weight and tone up.
Just so i dont have cottage cheese legs in a
leopard print mini skirt. =/

So i need some tips on toning thighs..? PLEASE.

So now i need to get stuff for my diet.
Theres nothing healthy in my house and its hard to eat healthy when healthy food doesnt exsist in my house hold.
Shit.
But yeah since shopping ran late yesterday we are going straight to
the college after school so we dont get tired and worn out.

e mail me and we can work with eachother one on one. It’ll probably help a little more.
hayleyrwood@hotmail.com

*(thats lyrics to song that would be appropriate. gym class heros “cookie jar”)

Weed smoking stops. STOPS STOPS STOPS.
I eat SO much its rediculous.
And i feel bad afterwards.
I want to just stop eating all together but that doesnt really lose weight. It just sucks that losing it healthily takes SO LONG.
i hate it.

And its weird, i feel like im not motivated enough.
I dont know why.
I hate looking at my body in mirrors. I mean i am so big.
I am 208lbs as of me being weighed yesterday at Planned parenthood
(just picking up birthcontrol, not pregnant haha)
Its horrible but my bestfriend says i dont look anywhere near 208lbs. But that point is i am.

So today my bestfriend said that she wants to work out and what not to be fit for wrestling season. So i told her i have
been wanting to work out
on a daily basis but didnt have anyone to do it with.
But she is rediculously smaller then me. She is like 107lbs.
Small build though she is like 4’11’‘
but still. This will be done the healthy way.
i have this tummy that is really big.
Like not pregnant but some people make fun of me and ask
“Is it a boy or a girl.”
Uhg. It doesnt so much hurt my feelings as much embaresses me.

But i have to go get (part of) my halloween costume today.
And thats another reason i wanted to lose a little more weight.
SO TODAY THE ADVENTURE BEGINS.

anyone want to help support one on one?
E MAIL ME! it would help a lot.
hayleyrwood@hotmail.com

(im the one in the green, im 5’7’’ and i was wearing heals so i look huge!)

Well, until now i havent taken this thing pretty serious.
But since i started smoking pot
a lot i have gained 10lbs.

HORRIBLE.
Now, i still love weed, but still.
Im going to try that Speacial K challenge.
It seems easy enough.
Bland though, i will say.

I weigh 208.
FUCKING GROSS.
But it doesnt look so bad.
I guess.

Fuck.
Well today is a new day and the begining.
I shall keep you guys posted.

Oh yeah, i need exersize tips!

Shitttt,
havent had an entry in days.
I need some exersize tippsssss.
Please.
I think i have the food shit down for the most part.
Im a vegentarian anyways so its not that hard.
BUT TIPS TIPS TIPS

thank you,
Hayley :D