own a house

the housing market is so unpredictable, so i have no idea what to expect for next year. we have lots to do next year, but i’d really like it if we could buy a house too. next year’s tax returns could help with a downpayment… we’re pretty happy with moving down to santa clarita. from what i can see, there are some affordable and nice houses there for now… i am going at this with pessimism and fear. i don’t want to be heart-broken like what happened 15 months ago. but i know how easily i can fall in love with a house and how much it hurts to lose it.

we’re not so much in a rush anymore to buy a house but we still look forward to the day we can get the heck out of palmdale. here’s a list of places depending on where my husband gets transfered that i think would suit our living expectations:

Santa Clarita/ AV jobs:
Santa Barbara; Santa Barbara (Lompoc); Santa Barbara (Santa Maria); Santa Barbara (Santa Ynez); Solvang; Goleta; Los Alamos; Carpinteria; Carpinteria-Summerland (Santa Barbara); Ojai; Santa Paula; Camarillo, tehachapi

Southern LA County:
Norco

a list to be revised and provide options and clarity. i really hope we don’t end up near southern LA county… ugh.

the day started off with a rainbow. literally. a sign of good luck.

the house is on the road to becoming ours. this feels so surreal. is this really happening?

well, i found the perfect house to suit our first house ever…. 3 bedrooms, 1 bathroom, detached 2 car garage, two patios, an outdoor hot tub, a white picket fence and all… it’s like a story book almost, which makes me feel as though this won’t actually happen. but with every bone in my body and every dollar out there with my name on it and with every prayer God will answer for me, i sure do hope that this is the one and we can make this happen.

we’re gonna go see it today at 2. what worries me is that the remax website says that it’s in escrow. but the realtor i’ve been dealing with says it looks like it’s been taken off escrow. so, something fishy seems to be at large and i don’t know if this is really available for us. we won’t know till we get there. in the end, there is no better moment than the now. we keep pushing this off and we viewed some houses back in early fall, and now… i dunno… it just seems right. even though sort of impossible. but i think we can make it work. i have some money sitting in meryl lynch, so, hopefully the fee won’t be too high to take it all out now… but it’s going to take a couple weeks to get the money out. i just hope that they won’t ask for money today. i can’t even get in touch with my loan guy. i’ll try him again in a few minutes, actually.

i’m so excited and scared… i feel like throwing up and dancing!!! i just hope that all doesn’t happen at the same time. LOL! hahaha…. please send me and my husband prayers! i mean, a house! our first house! a little piece of earth i can call my own!!! i’ll feel like a real adult, hahaha! and i really have my heart set on having a house before i have a baby… and this baby thing is driving me nuts, so we better get a move on it with this house!!!!!

PRAYERS PLEASE!!!!!!!!

we drove up there this weekend and started checking out houses with our realtor. it was so much fun! the town is beautiful. horse ranches everywhere. peaceful, nice people… when i’d breathe in the air, i couldn’t help exhaling the word “home” every so often. beautiful trees and mountains and wildlife! and quiet!! the same day we went apple picking at an apple farm in town and we picked up some freshly baked apple cake, too!

now, whenever i am driving around this dinky antelope valley, i look toward the tehachapi mountains and think, “i am going to have my first baby there!”

first, and most importantly… we need to get my husband out of his financial hole that his mother put him in. so that’s going to be fun, but we’ll be able to pay it all off this month. we’ll have to struggle a bit to get by, but it will be worth just getting it all over with so we can get a loan.

we’re thinking of moving up the tehachapi california. it’s quaint. in the country…. i am more and more disliking the noise and ruckus of the city. i hate the desert. i don’t like the people. blah blah blah… if i am going to buy a house, i want to own it in a nice country atmosphere. with wildlife and lakes and places for hiking and things like that. i spent much of my childhood driving about an hour ways to get to a large enough town to go shopping. so, tehachapi would be very similar to it. although, for a mall or something i only have to go about 30-40 minutes. so, far enough away from the fast-paced hootenanies of southern california, but close enough to not feel like i’m isolated and alone. good small town feel and all. perhaps a good first place to own a house. not to mention there are more houses there in our price range! we are still picking out some houses, but next weekend we are going up there and meeting with a realtor to view some of these houses. I AM SO FREAKIN EXCITED!

it’s fun to see a bunch of things sorta coming together that i’ve wanted to come true on 43things. although not much has been completed yet, i am getting to that point now where i can see when these things will be fulfilled.

there is a big possibility that come the fall, my husband and i will be looking for a house and getting in touch with my mom’s loan guy from quicken loans to start talking about how much we can get. it no longer seems impossible! how amazing this is, i am so excited! a house. for US! every month we’ll be paying a mortgage instead of rent money that every month we just throw into the pockets of landlords who hardly care about us! AWESOME!!!!

thank You Lord for all the blessings and beautiful opportunities You’ve been giving us and the strength You’ve given us by Your mercy to survive this past year! with Your continous help, please keep us on Your path and guide us to more beautiful things! keep our hearts pure and humble and greatful that we may never let these blessings get to our heads! we are undeserving!

to walk through the front door… breathe in…and say…. “THIS IS MY HOUSE!”

someday… i will get the joy. hopefully. yes, i will. cuz i want to. and if i want to. then it will happen.

a little dinky thing perhaps. in hilo of course… something jamey and i could fix up together… that would be a nice project for the two of us. maybe even make it nice enough for a few little ones to run around… sounds good.