enjoy every day

I’m still off with maternity leave now and with taking care of the baby and the house it becomes a tiny bit monotone right now. Not that I don’t like doing what I’m doing, but I’m not enjoying it enough. Maybe it sounds strange, but I guess I should just start enjoying being off, having time to do all the things I’m doing and some more in between. I only have 13 more weeks left and they should be as enjoyalble as possible.

Finally my husband realized that we are doing so well, have everything and should enjoy being so lucky much more than we do now. We had a nice talk about this and decided to do just that: having more talks, walks and time with our children, enjoy some nice food and the evenings without sitting in front of the tv.

My parents were here yesterday with my sister, her husband and their daughter. It was a nice and sunny day and we all enjoyed being outside the whole day. It was so nice.

This morning on the way to work the strangest thing happened. I had waved my husband and daughter goodbye as they stepped into the car and thought, what if something happened to the both of them. It was terrible, but I couldn’t stop thinking about it. And before I knew I sat on the bike crying my eyes out… about nothing!!! I’m ashamed… well, a bit for sure.
These hormones are really sometimes messing with me. But it had also something good. I called my husband to hear that everything is fine. And afterwards I signed that letter that made sure that I could work a bit less starting from next month. Work less, be more with my family.

This is difficult right now with a husband who is sick and all cranky all day. But my little daughter is making up for all of this – she’s great! And I enjoy every day with her!