Put God First

I’ve been to church for three Sundays in a row.

and it’s my one year anniversary of my baptism—forgot the exact day. haha.

and I’m going to a Christians on Campus gathering tomorrow

I’ve been reading the Bible daily

the other week I read a ton.

one of my misconceptions about my faith was that I somehow become a better person by being religious. the truth is I am simultaneously perfect in God’s image, yet perfectly flawed, unable to ever become free of sin. The only reason to be religious is to give it your best at living a Christian life, and to live as if you believe in God, giving up your life for God…

yep, God’s first in my life.

he pretty much saved my life.
how else do I repay him?

haha, what a conflicting thing to say.

let’s just say
thank you God. for everything. good&bad.

How do you make decisions? A conscious is a good place to start. People without religion still have a conscious. Likewise, some people who have religion lack a conscious.

Everything leads back to God. When every conversation you have and everything you think about goes back to the basic fact that God exists; then you know you are putting God first.

I try to put God first, last, and everytime in between.

example: I was meant to go out to a belated bday dinner with Unnamed and it begins to snow. What decision do I make? Go to the dinner, have them pick me up, go to a different restaurant, eat in, delay it. Que? Don’t worry about it.

For me, putting God first means letting the flow carry you. Obviously I can’t make the dinner even if I wanted to. God sent the snow…
Recognizing God in your life is only the first step.

Life is difficult. How do you know what to do. There are so many choices sometimes. Sometimes I prefer to be told. You have to decide when to wake up, when to go to bed, what to eat, what to do, where to go to school, what to major in, what career to choose, where to work, where to apply, where to go, what to do in your free time, what goals you have, who you date, who you talk to, how you talk, how you dress. There’s a lot of stuff to manage. It mostly comes automatic. Sometimes there’s a conflict. And in the conflict choose which God would have you choose. Listen to God, God will show you the true way and therefore the decision becomes much easier. The decision is only a hard one if you go it without God—alone.

During my day a lot of random thoughts pop into my head. “I think I smell biscuits,” “Hoy es Miércoles,” “I’m so stressed out,” or “Tomorrow I get to see mi amor.” Anyways, today one of my random thoughts was positive. I was actually listening to a CD about Truth and it made me think about coping with my stress. The CD said “Let Failures, Set-backs & Frustrations be the Fertilizer of your Dreams.” For instance Stress=Motivation (school, work, homelife is stressing me out therefore I’m motivated to stay in school etc and tough it out until the blessed day that is only 899 or less days away. Plus, it’s Christmastime, it puts me in a good-positive-everything’s-just-jolly mood.
I also had a thought of: “Anyone can recognize a Good Thing but an exceptional person can turn a difficult situation into a positive one. For instance, I need to save money, therefore I cannot spend it, hence me spending a lot of quality time with mi amor rather than ignoring him in some movie theater. Hmm.
It may be enticing to reserve yourself to “Failure” but it take Faith to believe this is delivered by God, for your own good.

Why do I decide,
Why do I not decide.
Decisions, Decisions.
I need to 1) Read the Biblia, 2) Go to church, stop staying out and choosing the Bf over God. My boyfriend needs to bring me closer to God, not create this division. You know what? I’m taking a day off. All this crap is just gettin’ to me. umm, jk. I should know better. Why do we choose to go against God?

God reveals Himself if only I listen hard enough. This doesn’t mean whenever it is convenient for myself to stop and think about God. No, God must be ingrained into every morsel of our being. I need to move with Purpose, think with Purpose. Everything I do is For God. Lately I’ve actually overcome some temptation that the Devil has thrown at me, and Glory To God for it because I am weak especially when it comes to the opposite sex…the muscular toned handsome soothing romantic suave intoxicating obsession-inducing, makes-me-want-to-stalk-him kind of temptation. jk. ...sortof.

Putting God first may sound vague. I try to put God first opposed to…1)my boyfriend, 2)school, 3)work, 4)everything else. Most frequently I listen to my own wants instead of what I know God wants me to do. More specifically, premarital sex, the constant struggle; listen to self or God. I need to align my own wants with God. Realistically, I need to 1)pray, 2)not put myself in a situation where I may put God second. This sounds cautious and a bit extreme but I know this is what God wants me to do.

I really wanted to get back into church. It’s been about 2 months, probably more since I went to church. I was going to church for about 2 yrs probably less, with my ‘now ex.’ I was hungry for church. I needed church.

I went a-searching in the interwebz and didn’t understand one word of the denominationalis. So, I basically looked for a diverse church that didn’t scare me. I found a nice one; Church of Christ. It’s ‘nondenominational’ which I think is funny/oxymoronic/ironic because it’s still a denomination of nondenominationalism, omg long word.

I went with my boyfriend. It’s UHMAZING. people are chill, small church, really warm and fuzzy and REALLY GLAD MY BF WENT BUT UNSURE WHY IM TYPING IN CAPS, SO ANNOYING WHEN PEOPLE TYPE LIKE DIS. anyways, I’m definitely going back next Sunday.

After being in love twice now I realize that the first time I had a bf I put him before God. Wow, big mistake. I’m learning this time that certain things need to wait, and to make sure God is first in every move and in every decision. God is a great guide. I am glad he inspired my heart to listen to him more, I am too weak too often in going after my own desires. I want to fear God more and do His will. I pray my obedience continues, not only because I don’t want to lose the man I love, but because I want my obedience to serve as glory to God. And not because I’m great and strong willed, only because God is great, Holy, the only God, and that He can make anything happen.

I have to get used to saying ‘I accepted Christ into my life.’ When I used to hear that I would feel like throwing up, I didn’t understand it and I didn’t want to. I just felt like that if someone else ‘accepted Christ’ that meant that I should too, and that since I didn’t ‘accept Christ’ let alone know who Christ was, then I was looked down upon by the Christians. I felt like I didn’t need to ‘accept a Christ’ and that I was fine on my own.
Anyways, long intro.
I need to let God seep into every crack and crevice in my life, into everything I do. I need to remember it. I’ve been doing well lately, but each moment I need to be on my toes for God and never forget my blessings. Blessings should never be gambled, always put God first. I need to show God that I love Him too, because He’s definitely shown me, in many ways, every moment.