eat healthy

soooo
my eating has been off.
I try to sneak veggies in. I’m doing great on the fruit side.
let’s just say canadians know how to do Whippets. I’ve found it most important to have a snack here and there so I’m not starved and eat whatever. I’m doing great on breakfast. I haven’t had a bad headache in a while, thanks to occasional snacks into the afternoon/evening :)

I don’t know why I didn’t go to the grocery store for a month. Perhaps laziness, afraid to spend money or eat. Hmm.
I bought a lot of food for easy and quick lunches and dinners. Nothing frozen except the veggies. It helps keep my blood sugar up throughout the day and I feel much better and more awake. I love working full time, horray.

Eating healthy varies for me daily. In the past 2 months I have not been eating well. I kind of lost motivation to do this. I ate more veggies as a vegetarian, go figure. I’ve been listening a lot more to my taste buds now. However, I always keep things on the ‘healthy’ side. I feel I should keep this goal around because I never want it to end. Today I had fruit, bread, pancake, milk, apple, ham sandwich, 2 granola bars, pinto beans, peas, milk, juice, applesauce, panini, salad, bread, diabetes-cookies :) not too bad.

I have been eating healthy. I haven’t ate a lot. I have been buying healthy food. I was going to buy chocolates but I never did. Yay me. I bought the ‘healthy’ waffles—made by Kashi. Also, I bought veggies! And, more variety. I’m glad I’m not depressed. But I need to learn to not rely on yummy delicious food to get me thru a day. I can’t believe I got to the point where I compared food to sex. I didn’t think it would get this bad. wow. haha

I need to eat more vegetables and stop eating waffles and breakfast pastries. Lately I have had this crazy insatiable appetite, mainly due to depression. I have found some delicious seasonings for veggies. I should attempt more fresh veggies, however I am only one person and usually the vegetable spoils. I hate vegetables! There are some vegetable juices I like, but I fear that isn’t too healthy, I know it isn’t.

Overall I wouldn’t say I’ve been healthy. However, I have been able to eat more vegetables, as long as I have some Ranch salad dressing with it. I’ve cut down on junk food. I usually get Diabetic Cookies or Non-Dairy ice cream or something that’s not too bad for me. I crave chocolate too much. I still only eat about 2 meals a day, but sometimes 3…I shouldn’t eat so infrequently. However, I hate to eat in front of people, like while babysitting or at work or school.

have only been eating one or two small meals a day. now I’m not even hungry for dinner. o-well. I try to keep it healthy and inexpensive. At this point I don’t want to be Vegetarian anymore, but I also do not want to eat meat. haha, I’ll just starve. I should’ve never become Vegetarian. it was all a bunch of hype that lead to condemnation by family and friends, and strangers and every restaurant in america. lol.

I wrote up about 10 recipes of food I like. I have tried to alter them to make them healthier. For example today’s Sloppy Joe day, and instead of ground beef I use soy ground beef and have a side salad, fruit whole wheat buns, and whole wheat crackers. This makes me happy and it’s constructive rather than my usual frozen meals.

things have been not so well,
developed more of an eating disorder…not eating much of anything, ever. been at about 2 small meals a day for the past week. this stems from my depression over paying for groceries and fear of not being able to pay for school and my car etc. however, my bf is a huge help, had a semi-decent dinner tonight. I’ve been utterly exhausted lately. I need a break. :)

i ate them. because they were free and therefore carry no calories?
i bought weight watcher ice cream bars.
ate two today.
otherwise I’m leading a rather balanced diet.
i felt incredibly fat after eating so much chocolate. definitely made my self esteem go down. can’t seem to seperate my self worth from my diet/weight.