avoid avoiding, face fear of failing, and commit to my best efforts and actions in the face of anything I fear

You know, it is rather silly, but when I signed up for this goal, failure was the furthest thing from my mind. As events have turned, flipped, and flowed with that peculiar fluidity that is so very intinsic to life, failure has become far more likely than I ever thought it would be. It’s funny that only now did it occur to me that avoiding avoidance, facing the fear of failure, and committing my best efforts and actions in the face of anything I fear could end in my failure of objectives classified under this goal.
Facing the fear of failing and failing regardless of my best intentions and attitudes. I have yet to fail, but its possibility is not insignificant. Fortitude is taxing.

Pursuing a college education that did not fit, fighting manic depressive episodes, and fighting the quirks of the human condition left me emotionally destitute and allowed me to socially isolate myself. Avoidance was a nigh irresistable force which overcame me. Consequently I failed at a few things that I was avoiding (like class).
I have turned around, but the price of that series of events is still being paid.