become closer to God

There are little things everyday that remind me of how bad i am or maybe the right word is how new i am to learing how to be in God’s grace. I have been learning the walk for three years now only i seem to fall from grace every once in a while. I am trying to get myself back in like i was when i first found God. He has done so much for me. All i can do right now is thank him daily for what he has done so far and for what he will do with my life. I pray that he will lead the way. I am his humble servant and want to show him i can walk thru the door he has shown me. There are other doors. Doors leading to things that seem much more fun. They are things that satisfy me. But all those things end in Sin. I must choose the right door. But will i do it?

Have you ever seen something that snapped you back into reality? Ok let me clarify this one. Two days ago i went to check the mail and a neighbor of mine was outside fiddling with his yard like normal. I waved and said my hellos to him as i headed back to my house. My boxer wiggled for a second and then followed me. The next day i left with my dad and sister to go get some food. Getting back home he was mowing the lawn. My sister went inside the house and i left with my dad again. Again when i left he was mowing his lawn with a push mower. Well when we got about 10 minutes from the house some ambluances came flying by us. When we get right before our road we see that the ambulance is blocking it off from entrance. We take another entrance into the road. I look over because i am naturally nosy and i see them giving my neighbor cpr. I went in the house and came back out and talked to a guy that i know who was doing yard work for another person on the road. He said that the last he saw the guy was on a riding mower. Well needless to say after only being gone for an hour my neighbor had somehow died. I am not exactly sure of what the cause of death was. The thing that has been getting me is the fact that every one of his doors to his house were locked. The guy was layed out on the ground and not breathing when a nurse who was driving by saw him. she stopped called 911 and proceeded to do cpr. They never got him breathing again. It was a strange day. It was sad that he died but also a shock back into reality and how quickly God can take you out of this world and into his. I had litterally seen the guy only an hour before and now he lays lifeless on the ground. I have awoken and want to become closer to God.

It has been three years since i was saved. I was saved during half time at super bowl. We had a big super bowl party at church and i went because i felt drawn to go. Since then God has worked wondering in mine and my younger sisters life. Tru he didn’t answer the prayer to put our parents back together but he did answer the one me and my sister both prayed oh so often and that was to bring my father closer to him and get him off of Meth. My father was a through and through meth head. He would smoke pot and do meth. He even dropped seeing me and my sister because he wanted the drugs so bad. Well one day he up and decides no more. Now it is nearly 2 months later and he is completely clean and has been since that day and next weekend he is getting baptized. I am so proud of him and i owe thanks to God everyday for bringing my most favorite person in this world to know him. I know God but not like i should. I seem to be in and out. Lets see if i can show you how i see it. To me i am in and out like if i was watching a movie i loved and found some things better to do only to find myself missing what i havent seen due to my own wandering. I learn more about my love for the good Lord every day and something here recently showed me just how much i have been missing. I will tell you about it in my next entry. AmyLynn