stop picking my face

so my face has been at its all time worst.

if i keep this up i’ll look like a pizza face pock marked crazy person.

and the truth is i don’t even have acne, and when i don’t touch it people compliment me all the time.

ugh. :(:(

MAY ALL YOUR FACES BE CLEAR!

lol.

It really is. It dried up my cuts in only 2-3 days. Which would take Neosporin a week to do.

I’ve been really antsy about picking my face. See, I lived in Maui, Hawaii but moved to California. And I’m staying at my aunt’s house while she’s in Santa Monica or Barbara, don’t remember. lol. But her mirrors are WAY TOO HONEST, let’s put it to that way. And the sides of my cheeks are getting those under pores or something, either from my 4 day in a row beach time or the now california sunshine…oven. ness. well anyway, that has gotten me to do little picking, the ones that dont show up the next day, but STILL. if i wanna stop, i have to COMPLETELY.

the vaseline is perfect for cuts, or anything (it’s a good lip balm! lol). And i haven’t done anything spectacularly stupid to my face since sometime in june. but yeah, i really want to stop completely.

and now i really have to, because of this reason…

CALIFORNIA’S BIG ON BEAUTY!

i mean, jeez man, maui’s like ho brah we go beach and stuff.
maui’s the total opposite of the fast lane.
and btw, i’m not hawaiian. lol.
but yeah, i will miss some of the things i could have done on maui.
but anyway, this is an entry on FACE PICKING. not a journal entry.

btw, face picking is stupid.
it might be “worse than cutting your wrists, in a way” lol as i have told my friends because of the depressing days you have because you face is a nightmare, and the more emotional pain that you recieve than physical, which i could be incorrect, but it is. in that way, it is worse. in that way, it is better.
i think if you really want to stop face picking look at your friends who have nice faces and look at yourself.
i use to subconciously pick my face right after meeting some friends. even my friends who had little acne and pimples, still had smooth and beautiful skin somewhere in their faces.
i use to have really, really nice skin.
i use to be this really confident girl before.
and that’s what bounced me back.
i don’t want guys to look at me and be like UGH.
i don’t want to look like i have pimples which are actually drying cuts from far away. because just like my dad, i don’t get pimples often. i got that lucky gene.
and i want to keep it.
i want to look beautiful for california.
i want to look beautiful for myself, and for other people looking at me.
because nothing’s really wrong with me.
nothing was ever really wrong with me, until face picking.
which is probably why i resorted to it.
i wanted myself to be, i don’t know.
but i found out that you know, everyone stresses out.
and by PICKING MY FACE, IT ONLY MADE MY STRESS WORSE.
so why make it worse?
why, instead of touching my face, i could get a stress ball?
or chew some gum?
or watch some tv to get my mind off of it?
or talk it out with a friend?
why make my life WORSE?
that’s what made me determined.
and i’m guessing that’s what made you, too.
so think about that.

P.S. nowadays(for stress), since i also love rainbow, i use a slinky. A SLINKY! oh the glory! : )

i have been “fake” picking when it gets tough…
but the scars finally dried up
and i did the hot water thing
and rubbed it off
and now
my face is clearrrrrr!!!
woohooooo!!

I cannot believe I haven’t picked in two days! and today i did, but it wasn’t bad picking (like under the skin or anything that would be there the next day) and it doesn’t effect my face. i actually had a white head today so i was like ohhkkayy? i’ve been beaching for like 3 days now haha.

here are my tips for you guys, which i remind myself every day. and it helps to talk about with my friends about my problem, because it’s their effect on how they look on you that’s also even more stressful and pressuring so it’s good to hear support and stuff that might hurt but helps. and some tips for nasty cuts.

always remind yourself that:
1. no guy will like you if you have a picked face. (it actually happened to me once. harsh, right? or it could have been because he thought i wouldn’t actually do anything “naughty” with him or something, beyond the point anyway.)
2.from far away, it looks like big pimples. which is bad if you already have pimples, you know what i mean?
3.life is less complicated without it
4.your face will scar a lot once your older
5.there are other ways to relieve stress and stuff.

and i haven’t thought of anything else yet but the boy thing and the pimple thing helped A LOT.
i was like oh shit!!! ahhh!!! hahah.

getting rid of picks and cuts or whatever (without a ton of foundation)
1. wet ones help dry them up sooner. don’t ask why
2. neosporin is your friend
3. once the pick or cut or whatever you wanna call it is dry, and btw this takes pratice and you have to really be careful because i messed up a couple of days ago and i peeled off some of my skin…you have to wash your face a couple times with hot water after taking a hot shower, rub off the dry cuts with your nail or finger. now don’t do this if you have a new fresh cut because a) it will hurt like a bitch b) it will bleed a lot and c) it will take longer to dry. but it helps clear up your face and once your done wash with cold water so you can lock those pores. yeehaw haha
4.hide your mirrors. OR
5.avoid mirrors and dont really look at the very detailed mirrors,keep one of those mirrors that made you look like you have slightly smooth skin from far away and close, i’ve been using my grandmas mirrors because its easier to just let go. i found out its really my mirror that makes me for some reason because it really details my face but its actually almost invisible to anyone else (asked a friend)

PICK FREE DAYS:2
PICK DAYS :1

Goodluck girlies!
Power to the people! haha