get married

I wonder what Captain Awesome would say about this goal.

WWCAD?

hm… about partnership and love at my favourite board, and we came to the conclusion that, perhaps, for some of us there is no one. And that that is ok and also feels ok (most times).

Truth is that I got used to the idea of staying alone. There were times when that thought really really hurt, but not anymore.

When I was in relationships I was needy, lonely, hungry, totally focussed on my partner, and far out of my own centre.
(I am not saying that this is always the case in a relationship! Not at all! It was so in my relationships.)
Since I am more balanced, more self assured, more true to myself I haven’t had a lover. But I have friends (women and men), I am not needy, not hungry, and there is much love in my life.

If being without a partner is the price I have to pay for being (more) complete: ok. Worth it!

But somehow—why the heck shouldn’t I find a man now that I feel more happy with myself and my life?!?

Questions, questions…

^{P.S. Dear future husband: don’t read the Day 43-poem! I am a great, talented hausfrau. Trrrust me! And you earn so much money that we will have a charperson anyway. Neh? NEH?!?}

knows how to do it.

like “fall in love” or “meet my soulmate”.

Thing is: I have fallen in love many times, and I don’t think I’d ever want to fall again. Love, yes. Not fall.
Me, I don’t want to carry a guy that has fallen in love with me, and I know from experience no guy likes to carry me around.

_{Heh, my first love and partner did carry me around quite a bit :), physically. But I carried him, too, emotionally.}

Now, the soulmate stuff. Yea, sure. Want him. Who doesn’t? But while waiting for my soulmate I have disregarded any living guy that I ever met. How bout dealing with reality?

Thing is: I want a decent relationship. That’s why I adopted this plain and simple goal: get married. I want to live with s/o.
There must be love involved, of course! Respect, understanding and definitely a bunch of humour and some eccentricity, too.
And loyalty and honesty.
That’s a lot already. No need to make things more complicated and unrealistic with any soulmating.

I should, perhaps, find a different name for that goal, something like “Find a RL lover” or, er, rather: “Get used to the idea that real men aren’t like the guys from books that I always and only fall in love with.”

It’s a plan… :)