forgive myself

Still working on this. How do you forgive yourself when you can’t even tell yourself that you will never do the same stupid things that cause so much pain again?

I think that my inability to forgive myself is causing some of my low self esteem. I realized that it is easier to forgive others because lots of times I can understand why they did what they did and in most cases I can prevent them from hurting me again. But it’s hard to forgive myself when I can’t even tell myself that I won’t allow the same things to happen again!

I have some other people in my life I need to forgive but I have come to realize I need to forgive myself first. I never realized how much I hate myself for allowing certains things to happen in my life and allowing certain situations to develop. I never realized until recently how much it is damaging my life and preventing me from being happy. I really need to work on this.