Learn who I am

I am going to enroll in my local college for classes and I think I am going to try to enroll in classes that start this June. I’m going to be a Neonatal Physician. Woo~Hoo!!

i told another person about my current partner situation. she was okay with it and i am getting a some confidence back a little at a time.

i am currently dating one of my ex’s and that puts me in a same sex relationship. before when we were together i was the proudest gay girl ever. i flew my flag high and i loved every minute of it. this time around i dont know if it is my recent ex’s ways that still havent filtered out of my brain or what but i am afraid of what people will think of me. i dont understand it. i feel like i want to keep it a secret because i dont want people to think differently of me. i finally told someone very close to me and even though she does not agree with the whole idea she said that she still loves me and she hasnt changed anything. she still talks to me and everything else. i am so afraid to tell the people i work very closley with and i dont know why. someone please help. what should i do? i am not by any means afraid to be with her or out in public with her but i am just afraid to tell people.

i have been back and forth with what i want to go to school for. i want to start next june and i NEED to figure out what i want to do. i am back and forth between a neonatal phichian and a criminal justice rep. i know these things are as different as night and day. i hope that i can figure this out sooner rather than later. if anyone has any helpful input on either of the 2 please feel free to inform me on your outlook. anything would help.