Kick today's ass!

has drained the life out of me.
I feel weak and tired, I could start crying any given second, and I can feel depression crawling in and settling too close to me. Waaay too close.
The only ass that’s going to be kicked today is mine, as it seems.

So far,we’ve managed to wash the floors (B’s work), make breakfast (B again), drink coffe (B made coffee)...um…what did I do today? Oh, right, I talked on the phone, drank coffee, and finished my scarf!! Yay, me!

The rest of the day:

1. finish watching the movie
2. take a walk in the snow to return the DVD
3. finish reading the book
4. make sesame salt
5. make lunch
6. bake cookies
7. go through recipes
8. start knitting a scarf for nephew
9. wrap the presents that are ready
10. rearrange the bottom shelf

B bought a small fan blower yesterday, paid next to nothing for it, and it works like a charm. It should be easier to kick ass tonight after work (as opposed to sitting wrapped in blankets, shivering).

Work:

1. call accounting in main supplier
2. look for lost invoice
3. call lazy, sloppy, rude supplier
4. call lazy, sloppy, rude supplier No.2
5. prepare papers for tomorrow
6. don’t forget present for Bil

1. buy lotion for mum?
2. check with sis if she has the book
3. go spend B’s Christmas bonus? -he spent mine yesterday paying bills, how unromantic of him :(
4. pick up Christmas bonus No.2, yay!
5. look for filofax
6. look for a stamp box

1. cook dinner
2. clean up
3. go through recipes
4. change sheets

I was fairly productive at work today (truth to be said, I could have done more, but…) and I still have a few things to look into, and then I’m off to:

1. buy stamps
2. buy shower gel
3. cook dinner
4. prepare warm drinks and hope the fan blower works well
5. go to the post office and mail EVERYTHING
6. knit
7. read
8. work on goals
9. prepare clothes for tomorrow and put away all the dry things (if any)
10. wash up
11. look for a carpet

I guess I’m still tired from all the hard stuff I had to do last week. I could unwind at home, snuggle, watch movies, knit and such, if my apartment wasn’t so damn COLD. It’s freezing in there and taking a shower is a test of endurance. I don’t like cold. It’s very cold outside, too, but that’s acceptable given it’s mid December and all…I’m stuck in a stupid situation, and right now we can’t move because a) we don’t have the time to do it and b) the tiny amount of money we’ve saved up was meant for treating ourselves a bit and helping a friend with a sick child. Urgh!

1. do nothing and wait for the day to finish

1. go to grandma’s
2. pay R.
3. call BiL, wish him a happy happy birthday
4. buy Christmas cards

1. pay cleaning
2. pay maintenance
3. stash recipes
4. knit
5. work on goals
6. try making the gingerbread latte
7. write postcards
8. write Christmas cards
9. write a letter to G.
10. read

Not much accomplished at home yesterday, but it was so cold I had to calculate and plan visits to the bathroom….:(

I finally called the worst supplier, he was grumpy and bad behaved as expected, but we finally resolved the matter sitting on my desk forever. Phew!

_{I kinda like this ass kicking…it is so much better to walk around without the heavy weighs of procrastination and endless excuses on my shoulders.}

Weekend is here, at last.It has been a very long week. Luckily, nothing awful happened, but it was very stressful and I am glad it is over. Now I have to:

1. buy the book for my nephew
2. look for a decent filofax to suit the new, organized, goal-achieving me B said he’ll buy me one for Xmas, yay!
3. look for Christmas cards
4. cook dinner
5. try baking cookies
6. try out the new recipe
7. tidy up and wash up and try to make the flat look presentable
8. knit
9. work on goals
10. make a shopping list for tomorrow
11. call friends over or collapse tired
12. pay cleaning
13. call landlord and pay rent, boo-hoo :(

1. go shopping – be extremely decisive and quick, remember to bring the list with us
2. go to grandma’s, give her a bath- my mum and sis did this before I arrived
3. knit

1. grandma’s: text A. and meet for coffee?
2. home – sort out stuff from shopping trip
3. knit
4. home pedicure
5. work on goals
6. prepare for another working week – iron clothes, make THE payment, plan meals

Work:

1. prepare everything for Saturdaythis took all day, really, which means more unpaid overtime for me! Yay!
2. go through stacks _preparations made for Monday
3. write letter to LUat least i have the sketch,will finish Monday
4. call worst supplier
5. call agency
6. prepare invoices for post
7. pay invoicesprepared
8. dailies

During work tomorrow, I have to make a phone call I’m dreading. I already tried today, but couldn’t reach them, and my heart was pounding so hard, it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest.I’m petrified.
Edit: I made the call and I have to go to a meeting on Monday afternoon. I feel a teeny bit better (at least I didn’t run away, as I would have done before) but still extremely nervous and scared.

1. dinner
2. clean up
3. work on goals
4. celebrate/cry/ be terrified – this depends on the am phone call
5. watch a movie hopefully
6. hug B trillion times, the helpful darling that he is

Not feeling so good this morning. We went to grandma’s after work yesterday and she was doing well, and I had a nice long chat with my aunt. Everything was going well until late, when B and I hit another little rock and I just locked in silence. I am not the one giving cold shoulders usually, but I was so stressed and tired, I just couldn’t cope. Blah.

Edit: funny how a quick phonecall can turn things around, even if it was me making the call. It can be so difficult sometimes – to walk the fine line between holding on to your pride and holding a grudge.

Work:

1. call LU and politely ask if they could pretty please resend their form, since I seem to have misplaced the last one, go me!
2. call accounting re bank codes
3. go through all the stacks
4. call supplier No.1 already
5. call supplier No.2 already
6. call supplier No.3 already e-mailed them
7. call supplier No.4 already
8. prepare papers for tomorrow
9. fax/e-mail quotation to big boss
10. e-mail big boss about his stupid mistakes
11. prepare invoices for cash payment

1. make lunch weren’t hungry again :(
2. knit scarf No.1 almost finished
3. work on the list
4. work on my goals

I must try and make a list that I can check off completely.

1. hang the washing

1. call accounting re payments
2. prepare papers for tomorrow’s vessel
3. pay invoices
4. fax new number
5. prepare invoices for cash payment
6. prepare those bloody delivery notes for post
7. call bloody suppliers
8. fill the bank’s forms tried to do this, but it requires some password/code thingy I don’t have yet, will have to get back to this tomorrow
9. find the letter and write to L.U. re new contracts

Once again, I didn’t do everything on this list. I hate this feeling, but I’ve been busy all day. The last thing worries me so…

1. buy lunch
2. check for the book for B bought it
3. go to grandma’s or go home – grandma’s first and then home

1. lunch? dinner, but delicious
2. knit
3. write postcards
4. work on the lists
5. move the photos to memory stick, so I can upload them at work

It’s late and I didn’t get to do all these things, but I did make decent dinner and my sink is shining!