find out who i am

I am figuring this out slowly but surely. So far I have this,

I am the type of girl who goes out of my way to help anyone, I am happy and very talkative. But it annoys me when someone is rude while I help them. I am the type of girl who always has a book with her, its in my purse at all times. Its a safety net. Reading is one of the only things that make sense to me. If I can throw myself into a great book my life is complete. Music is the other thing that I understand. A good song explains life, and I find myself trying to find myself in a good song. I am a very passionate person. If I find something that I love I will give myself completly to that. I am like that in relationships to. I am the kind of person who does not get brought down by other peoples issues but I am very empathetic and will try my hardest to help..

This is just a little of what I am finding out. More will come I know that! But I am happy and for the first time in awhile I am proud to be who I am.

I cant really explain the feeling that has washed over me lately but I know that I am not entirely happy with who I am and I honestly don’t believe where I am in my life is exactly where I want to be. This person who is living is not me. I follow others and submit to the laws of society. I want to stand out for a change, I want people to say hey she has arrived. I am tired of being walked on and letting people do it because I am afraid if I dont they wont like me. And that is not want I want in life I want to stand on top of the world and say I did it, I know exactly who I am and you will never be able to squash me down again.

I have a voice and I finally want to let it be heard.