I’ve been feeling so emotionally drained lately. I haven’t played any music for at least a week – that’s never a good sign. I’ve been trying to push myself to do the many things I need and want to do, but I think I’ve been pushing too hard, so much so that a part of me would do anything and everything to escape and not think about it. Which is extremely counterproductive – and then I beat myself up, try to work in my leisure time too, and end up not getting the work or the play – or the rest.
I just want to fix everything – but it’s not going to happen overnight. If people who don’t understand disapprove, so be it. A little at a time, Ira.
I’ll make time every day, and especially over the weekends, to relax, and do nothing if need be. I will start to meditate again. (I’ve been trying to do it a few nights this week.) I can only do what I can, and what I can is small steps. It will come.