Die with the woman I love

the more i think about this one…. the more i worry as to whether or not it will happen, it all seems very unlikely the rate i am going. i just have no idea what makes up a healthy relationship, -i can be so perceptive unless i am trying to analyze something that has to do with me. more than once i have resigned myself to dying alone.

I doubt if there could be anything more solemn and gratifying. Not that I have a deathwish, or that I have even found such a person, but to end this with that person would be a great commendation to serenity