Tomorrow, I will start to take classes from architecture department of my university since I got into the architecture minor program which is really exciting for me. But….. I’ve got a serious concern about that architecture department. My achy, bloody, bristly,pesky long term and major ex-crush is an architecture major. This means that, tomorrow we are gonna have to be in the same class, I had to register to his section since other section’s time did not work out for me.

and I’m fucking frustrated about it. Actually, it is more than frustrating. It was June, when I last time saw him, it makes almost four months! In the past, almost a year ago, I declared that I liked him, but he didn’t want some kind of relationship or sth between us despite the fact that he always acted too suspicious and uncertain about things. He did not let me go either and I know that he has got a thing for me. It does not necessarily have to be a kind of serious crush or something. But he has got a thing. I’m so very sure. At least, at very very least, he likes the idea of me having a crush on him.

Well… I really do not know how my body and heart will respond when I see him tomorrow. I actually, do not ever wanna face it.

I don’t know how to act around him.
I don’t know how will his face look like when he sees me there at his faculty and taking same lessons with him.
Will I annoy him?
I don’t know this either.
What about his friends…? If they know that I liked him, can they be making fun of me like “Hahahaha. Stupid girl. She’s getting a minor from architecture just to be more with him.”?
Will I look like I’m there, at the department of architecture for him?
How would you feel if you were in the shoes of him?
Is there a case of “obsessive girl stalking me” or “she seems really interested in this stuff, it is perfectly normal she is getting this minor.”?
Do I need to be friendly and nice to him or should I just ignore all of his existance and act the cool girl?

Oh I’m soo nervous and confused.
I hope you can share a few words and thoughts guys. I’d really appreciate it and it would mean a lot to me. Because I’m totally about to go nuts !!!!!!!!!

If you were to choose a soundtrack for the last month, which song(s) would it be?

Why?

What makes you nervous or stressed out?

^{This makes me quite nervous right now.}

^{Image is from here}

What is the last thing that you started but not finished?

What makes you excited right now?

What are you looking forward to do?

What is your summer song? I mean, which song is gonna remind you summer of 2009 ten years later?

^{I’ve been listening to this song, Living on my own by Freddie Mercury since like beginning of the summer permanently.}

^{It has got the most wonderful electronic background I’ve ever heard, and seriously, is must be written specially for me!}

^{It is a fact that many people’s political views are shaped by their families because of the way they are being raised.}

Are there differences between your political views and your parents’ political views?

If so, are they major?

What is/are the last band(s) or singer(s) that you recently discovered or started to listen and really liked?

If you were to take one of these classes and master it for the entire summer, which one would you take it and why?

• History of Arts
• Film Analysis
• Genres in Arts
• Drawing
• History of Jazz
• Classical Turkish Music
• History of Instrument
• Piano
• Classical Guitar and Chamber Music

Thank you for your help already :)

Do you have a fave?

What do you think of the Turkish song?