Tomorrow, I will start to take classes from architecture department of my university since I got into the architecture minor program which is really exciting for me. But….. I’ve got a serious concern about that architecture department. My achy, bloody, bristly,pesky long term and major ex-crush is an architecture major. This means that, tomorrow we are gonna have to be in the same class, I had to register to his section since other section’s time did not work out for me.
and I’m fucking frustrated about it. Actually, it is more than frustrating. It was June, when I last time saw him, it makes almost four months! In the past, almost a year ago, I declared that I liked him, but he didn’t want some kind of relationship or sth between us despite the fact that he always acted too suspicious and uncertain about things. He did not let me go either and I know that he has got a thing for me. It does not necessarily have to be a kind of serious crush or something. But he has got a thing. I’m so very sure. At least, at very very least, he likes the idea of me having a crush on him.
Well… I really do not know how my body and heart will respond when I see him tomorrow. I actually, do not ever wanna face it.
I don’t know how to act around him.
I don’t know how will his face look like when he sees me there at his faculty and taking same lessons with him.
Will I annoy him?
I don’t know this either.
What about his friends…? If they know that I liked him, can they be making fun of me like “Hahahaha. Stupid girl. She’s getting a minor from architecture just to be more with him.”?
Will I look like I’m there, at the department of architecture for him?
How would you feel if you were in the shoes of him?
Is there a case of “obsessive girl stalking me” or “she seems really interested in this stuff, it is perfectly normal she is getting this minor.”?
Do I need to be friendly and nice to him or should I just ignore all of his existance and act the cool girl?
Oh I’m soo nervous and confused.
I hope you can share a few words and thoughts guys. I’d really appreciate it and it would mean a lot to me. Because I’m totally about to go nuts !!!!!!!!!








