figure out my future

For a countless times I have been told that I could make a good academician.

Being a student for a looong time, and still staying at the school even after graduating all those grad schools sounds like a right thing to do for me.

But academic life is really really challenging, and my GPA is not that high yet, even I finally managed a GPA that is over 3.00

And am I ambitious and patient enough to carry the burden of academic life?

I’d love to, if I could. But here in METU, being an academician thing is like an unrealistic fantasy most of the times. Really tough.

I’m an ambitious person in some ways of mine, but I’m not a competitive one.

I’ve got a very curious nature,I like learning on my own and I believe that I’m a fast learner.

But, really, is this enough? And more importantly, Is it worth it?

Ok, in my previous entry I stated that I wanted to be a lighthouse keeper. But I guess, at first I want to give a try at social science stuff. Actually, one thing that is sure in my mind is that, I’m gonna go to grad school after I get my degree and continue my academic life.

Anyways, social science is a veeery vast thing and I guess I’m gonna have to narrow my field down.

I’ve always thought that, it would absolutely be lovely to get a degree in anthropology after getting a degree in sociology. I can strongly feel that these are my things. Humanity! Then, working in the field of human rights could be a reasonable thing to do after gaining a deep acquirement in study of societies and human beings. If I can become competent enough in my field, I would love to work for an establishment such as UNHCR (The UN Refugee Agency), or AI (Amnesty International) and so on.

Another field that I thought I can study or work could be Media. I always loved writing and photography even though I don’t find myself competent in these fields. But I think, I could improve myself by taking classes, attending to seminars and workshops. Also, social science studies could improve my perspective and perception of world. I know someone who could arrange me an internship about media, in CNN Turk, that could help too. This road is full of different experiences and alternatives as well!

Finally, I guess I will never be a full-time artist, but at least I wanna continue on producing things and improving myself, also become well-informed in the realm of art. I want to be taking photos, reading-writing things, and be playing the guitar until I die…

SO much to do.
I need to work so f..king hard and the thought of it tires me already.

But you know what they say:

No pain no gain!

In case social science thing does not work out for me, I want to be a lighthouse keeper!

Showing lost crew’s their way and gazing at the seasparkles.
Playing the acoustic guitar, composing songs for seals to listen at night, writing stories of those lost crews and taking photographs of everything related to these magical things.

That must be life!

How fairytalish…

I’ve got just soooooo much things in my mind nowadays and don’t even know how to organize my thoughts!