and I’m so afraid that I’m living it so intensely that I’m not allowing myself some fun. My dream is to study at FIDM and I’m doing that now – but the projects are so time-consuming and effort-heavy that I have not much time to socialize. What time I do have ends up being at home, chilling.
So I want to really get off my butt and MAKE TIME to explore this grand city! :)
whether it’s on my list or not. It’s something I don’t intend on giving up. I don’t think that I’ll forget to live my dreams. At least, I hope not.
I have lived several big dreams of mine…great goals and I think that means so much. And having done them gives me so much more confidence that I will be able to live my other dreams as well. I’m currently living my dream of attending design school. And this will be for a little while more so I’ll be thinking up new dreams to have :D in the meantime.
I posted this in another goal too but this applies well:
“To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.”
- Anatole France
Some new events that have happened recently tells me that while I wish I could do this, a sense of obligation compels me to do otherwise. I feel like I have a sense of duty to my family to support them (financially – and if I can, in other ways as well). Yet, to do so requires settling down and finding a “good job,” one that’s career enhancing, versus my dreams of using a year or two to work overseas (which I can’t count on paying too well – well I can hope but still).
I just wish I didn’t have this decision.
When I was younger, I used to daydream a lot. I was trapped – as a kid, what financial or legal means do I have to do anything? And it’s not like I had a bad childhood – I was just very depressed and suicidal (thinking of it only). Daydreaming and reading was my way out – my escape from reality.
To this day, if I can’t sleep, I think about my dreams and I visualize me doing them and stuff. Happy thoughts :).
Well, 5 years ago, I took the first step out of my shell – and it gave me a lot of confidence. 3 years ago, I went on a study abroad program for 6 weeks and when I came back, knowing that I had accomplished a long-time dream of mine, as well as the new-found confidence, I was ready to tackle more of my dreams.
Now, I’ve accomplished 3 more dreams: I’ve studied abroad in London (which was my biggest dream of all), started my own business, and been accepted to my dream school, FIDM.
Now c’mon, what’s dream #5 going to be?! :D