live life to the fullest

i made it through my second day of no drinking.
weird thing happened to me in the middle of the
night i woke up soaking wet, i’m not sure if that’s
the detox process but will do some research today.
one thing that kept me motivated to to not drink
was writing today, just the fact that i wanted
to be able to say “I made it through another day” so there you have it. Until tomorrow..
B true 2 yourself!
Lis

I dedicate this journey to my girls and the love of my life my boyfriend who I don’t deserve, who takes care of me and my girls who is my bestfriend, best lover (seriously he is) my best partner in this world. ~
Today is the second day of my 43 day journey. Honestly, I don’t have the confidence that i can do this. However, I know I made it through 1 day of “NOT” drinking and I know that today
I do “NOT” feel like shit! I feel really good. I hope tomorrow I will be able to write “today is day 3”.
If I survived 1 day without drinking I will live through today without the toxin as well. I’m doing this for so many reasons. One forsure is: I don’t want to lose the love of my life and if I keep drinking the way I drink; I know I’ll lose him as well as my family unit!
One of the 43 things I want to do is get my memory back, It seems that drinking has burned all my memory brain cells. I want to stop waking up in the morning trying to rack my brain to remember what the hell happened before I passed out. I’m tired of asking my boyfriend what I said or did last night. I’m really tired of NOT remembering the awesome love sessions we have together! god i feel like such a loser even saying that!
I’m tired of my girls telling me that I get mean when i drink too much! I’m tired of looking like I have 2 pound bags under my eyes. I’m tired of looking 10 years older that i really am. I’m sick of the headaches, drymouth, fogginess! I’m sick of spending all that money on wine! I sick of wasting my time taking naps to try and get over the hangovers. I’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!!!
So until tomorrow, wish me luck, send me positive energy, so that i can lick this f*#%ing disease.
talk to you tomorrow.
warm regards,
“Lisa, the Lush”