I really gotta start lightening up sometimes. When I’m just around my friends, doing what we do, having a good time – I’m happy, cheerful, loud, having a good time, cracking jokes, the usual. But I think this all goes down hill when…you combine me with something that doesn’t come easily to me. If it’s during basketball practice, and I can’t do something right off the bat – i get frustrated and in “one of my moods”. If it’s math class, chem class, history class – and i can’t understand the material, or something doenst go my way – i get all bitchy and in one of my moods.
sometimes they just come, just because I’m a moody kid. For no apparent reason, just because! But i wish they’d stop! I dont LIKE being moody. I dont like people being like, whats wrong blah blah blah. Cuz quite honestly, I think people dont even bother asking anymore cuz it’s so frequent with me. Sometimes i’m kinda like, YEAH, what the hell IS wrong with me. But other times I feel like I’m justified for being in a really pissy mood. Feeling like a failure sucks, and maybe it’s not the “moody” thing I have to get under control, maybe i gotta stop feeling like I’m failing at everything and learn to accept it. But I dont wanna just “accept” sucking either.
OH boy.
I dunno.
