that I absolutely LOVE my life. I believe I am right where I am supposed to be and I think that I am surrounded by people I love who love me right back. I have a wonderful life. Its not always an easy life but I am lucky to have the people I do in my life. I have a wonderful daughter, wonderful boyfriend, great family and a bunch of really great friends! I am super happy!
The only reason I say I “come to the realization” is after listening to my neighbor here complain about all the problems with her husband and marriage, I’m thrilled to death that I finally have found what I was looking for and I am not going through what she is going through. I try to give her advice but she isn’t ready to follow it yet. I think she likes drama and stress. I do not. I am so happy to say that my life is generally calm and happy!
I’ve always been fairly happy and upbeat. Sure there are crappy days that make me want to scream or cry but the majority of my days are ok b/c I can look on the positive side of things. About 5-1/2 years ago when I was married, we started having problems and while I didn’t know what was wrong or what was going on, I come to find out later he was cheating on me. Anyways, I ended up in a depression and on meds. They called it “situational”. I lost a lot of weight, I was down under 100 pounds, I cried all the time, slept all the time, it was just a terrible terrible time. Once I left him, I met someone else and I went off the meds (yes, on my own, which I know I shouldn’t have done, but I did) anyways, I just never want to rely on someone else for my happiness. So, that is what this goal is about. Finding happiness from within.